Through My Lens

spring break.

2011-09-11T14:19:00.000+08:00

kanak-kanak riang...

...jalan-jalan pusing-pusing,

...main sandboarding,

...main bunga api,

...and main belon

=.='

robotSumo

2011-04-07T21:07:00.000+08:00

the stage

the ring

and here's the champion

naah..we lost actually..but it was one heck of a fun project..so freaking coooooollll!!!
and now comes the ~~most hated~~ least preferred part of all, Write A Report..not coollll!!

here's our last match :

a tip of mechatronics

2011-03-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

computer science engineering project.
(no,i'm not under this school.i'm under mechanical & manufacturing engineering school)

source : http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2009/03/robots.html

alright.here's some kind like the project i chose to do for this sem.except mine,is much much simpler.

group task number 1 is to build and program a robot to walk through a maze,pick up a bottle,and take it to another place.

group task number 2,build and program a sumo robot.

yeay,i've always dreamed of doing such things.new knowledge,new experience at the same time.nice.good.perfect.alhamdulillah.selamat menjayakan projek ni dengan jayanya.

through MY LENS,arghh..i miss taking pictures already.bila nak pergi jalan-jalan lagi ni?city pon tak habis pusing lagi =(

apple

2011-03-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

hey.i've already done 2 of my 10 wishlist just by today,the early of March,which means i'm still on track of the timeline formula i've created before.36.5 days for each target.told'ya it ain't a bad idea at all.so this leaves me another 8 to go.insyaAllah.

anyways,so how'szit goin'?just realised,this blog's viewers now are 40%++ using iphone,man.and suddenly it becomes a common phone here.they even have this green box for handphone recycling.guess what,the common phone used back in my country,yeah,those are recycle materials here..cess.baik bwk blk Malaysia semua fon tuh.ish3.tak untung..

since i've mentioned it,iphone is one kind of a phone la.berguna sgt3,especially for travellers.ada apps yg cool and real helpful and convenient for determining kiblat,waktu solat and so many others.very useful.hari tu dah ada pengalaman solat kat mana-mana ntah,with the aid of iphone to determine kiblat and botol air to take wuduk.best best.

through MY MACRO LENS,apple,your great.if the founder is a muslim,and niat ikhlas nak tolong muslims around the world,subhanaAllah,besarnya pelaburan pahala insyaAllah.and that's why i need to succeed and excel in doing this mechatronics study.to create nice gadgets like this,i guess..^_^ amin
••the end•• ~~blupblupblup~~

photographic memory

2011-03-01T14:59:00.000+08:00

and the pictures say it all..

unsw-ians with the harbour bridge..kalau malam would be much-much more beautiful la..cess!!

rumah opera plus some whacko guys

the view from distance

city of sydney

and this is matt brener's shop.feeling very guilty makan sini because the owner's jew,but am hungry and no other place to eat..there won't be a next time i hope..

off to down under

2011-02-27T04:52:00.000+08:00

i'll be pretty much busier after this so i guess better to spend some time now rather than later,to write up some updates.the flight wasn't so bad but sure,the process up to that stage,fuhh,kindda tiring.i hate packing.and i hate unpacking.but i sure like travelling.so i guess that part i have to improve myself.next,the sudden check-in.didn't even had the chance to,what do they call it,spend quality time with my family that much.but no worries,panjang umur murah rezeki,i'll be back insyaAllah.then,i arrived sydney international airport.the arrival was interesting.some things happened,which i'll say caused a delay for me n few of my friends.so we exitted the airport the last,finding all other students waiting for us.lol.what a day.anyways,here i am.sydney.it was sunny and quite hot,but alhamdulillah,i'm finally here.gd'day mates.

RIOT!

2011-02-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

during the RIOT! in egypt...
line telefon in mesir sangat unstable and unreliable..

riot riuk rendah gulana

case 1: trying to contact my bro in mesir
dad: hello.
stranger 1: !@#$%^&*()_ (speaking arab da..)

case 2 : trial no.2
dad: hello.
stranger 2: hello. (suara mak cik arab plak da..)
dad: i'm trying to call my son.can you pass it to him?
stranger 2: i'm looking for my mother.where's my mother?where have you taken her? (minah mana plak ni?)

case 3 : third trial
dad: hello.
stranger 3: hello. (suara pak cik melayu plak da..)
dad: i'm trying to call my son in alex.can you pass it to him?
stranger 3: saya pun mahu contact anak saya di alex.
dad: *pelik*. (but then,the conversation continued.sempat la berkenalan and get to know,anak pak cik ni also student alex uni and dia tengah try nk contact anak dia jugak)

the end~

moral : line kat mesir tengah criss-cross sampaikan nak contact orang mesir,boleh tersambung dengan orang malaysia yang nak contact ke mesir jugak.entah kena charge international rate ke local rate entah.yang penting,ramai dak malaysia dah selamat pulang or selamat dikeluarkan dari mesir.lega lega lega.

p.s.: one of my 2011 wishlist has come true.alhamdulillah.

talents in television

2011-01-16T15:03:00.000+08:00

junior masterchef australia (not new zealand).lol.anyways,this is one kind of a show.daripada malaysia sibuk-sibuk mencari bakat menyanyi kanak-kanak ribena,rather it would be much more meaningful to discover cooking talents among these children.well,it doesn't have to be specifically for cooking skills,but anything that benefits the kids in the future.i mean,the 'future' future,not 'esok-lusa' future.perhaps ideas like these that we should copy and take from other countries.

lie to me.another tv series on my list.cerita yang boleh-lah-tengok-time-bosan-sebab-tv-series-yang-lain-lambat-sangat-nak-release-new-episode.a story of this profesional people who can tell whether one is lying or not,by observing facial or body expressions.isn't it great to have talents like them?to tell when somebody's lying?

somewhere in the middle

2011-01-13T17:58:00.000+08:00

Are you a duck, or a rabbit?~~or khunsa'?~~

.a.randomly.chosen.pix.lamely.edited.by.someone.

that's what you get

2011-01-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

sound.you will never realise betapa banyaknya bunyi you hear everytime.even now,while i'm writing,banyak sound kedengaran(as if sound can be counted).bunyi anjing melalak,tv also,kipas berpusing,surat khabar melayang,and lots more if i put some more effort to focus.we're just too use to sound,bila sunyi sangat,tak sedap badan le.or is that just my issue?silent-to-nophobea?

'THE SCENE'
alright.the idea just came after tengok bola alone at home.takde feel la bila tengok alone,especially bila GOAL!!!nope,sorak sorang-sorang tak best.tapi,there's something i realise.ada function rupa-rupanya commentator sukan ni.ingatkan just memekak.actually,they create the emotion.excitement.frustation.passion."abu membawa bola ke hadapan,menghantar terus ke ali,ali menggelecek bola,peluang terbuka,dia sepak dan OOOO..sayang sekali bola tersasar sedikit,terkena tiang gol,melantun tepat ke muka ahmad,dan GOOOOOLLLL!!!".you see,it creates the feeling.well,it really works for a pathetic me(well,obviously this post shows how pathetic am i),living home alone,i guess.damn!!cesss!!

MYLENS,just hoping tv series akan keluar cepat-cepat so that i can download it before i'm illegal to do that in the overseas.cepat!!!

just do it

2011-01-03T10:39:00.000+08:00

best nye tgk orang list out the last year's wishlist and most of it dah achieved.respect for korang ^_^
let me give it a try.maybe because i never wrote it down anywhere,that's why tak pernah2 nak achieve kot.
so here's my wishlist for 1432H as well as 2011M:

nak own a dslr.to be specific,now dah target nak beli nikon d90.n i want to be a great cameraman,to shoot as many pix as possible.(nak amek gambar everytime achieve 1 target of this wishlist)
i want to gain weight,to balance my BMI,healthily.maybe kena start makan banyak,(including sayur2an) plus do more exercise.kalau cycle everyday ke class,sounds interesting.
must socialise MORE with people.before,jarang2 i'll start a conversation with strangers,(especially girls).i guess kalau dok oversea,i need to be more selamba and tegur2 je anyone(yg perlu).
nak refresh plus add-on my islamic knowledge.i've been to sekolah agama since primary school,and once i'm out,i'm nothing much?jangan sia2kan peluang yg dah ada cause many more didn't have the chance to learn agama as much as i did.so,by hook or by crook,just do it!!must do it!!
save money at least 5% of every month allowance.but if you want to travel around the world,then you'll just have to add-up sikit lagi.
have to be strict when it comes to study.dah memang that's the main purpose kena hantar sana pon an.last minute punya kerja can be done but cannot be AWESOME.true story.
i've always been average in everything.so my next target is to find some things that i truly like doing it,and be more than just average.i'll start with picture taking & image editing.
polish my language.english,for sure kena improve.arabic,i want to learn it back and score band above 7 in speaking,reading,listening and writing for IELTS for arabic(if it exists).and nak belajar bahasa baru.any new language,sikit2.
appreciate families and friends as much as i can.they say,dok oversea,friends are families.families are friends.so treat them that way.(but still don't forget the real family kat malaysia ye)
alright,the last for now.any tambahan,add later.cooking skills.hehe.dah banyak kali try before,but never have been sedap.eh,pernah sekali actually.sambal ikan bilis,it taste just like ibu masak.muahaha(bangga2).anyway,belajar masak sedap2 ea.

through THE OPTIMIST LENS,very2 achievable.

through MY LENS,well,i got all year.why not give it try?

[ 365 / 10 = 36.5 ]

365 days divided by 10 targets,so i'll have about 36.5 days to achieve each of things in this list.sounds logic.kot.

seeing through lenses

2010-12-31T15:44:00.000+08:00

alright.i want to make the best out of everything i'll be,and see (,and dee..??) in future."for greater good"

today,i got the chance of ~~fooling around~~ playing around with nikon d90 and it was damn awesome. the image captured is clear,the functions are many,and somehow convenient for a new-entry level cameraman like me.plus,i have a friend right beside me at that moment to teach some basics and what i need to know about dslr.from aperture to ISO to lens focus to shutter speed and to few more things.

but then,i realise.the camera cost quite a fortune.well,for a student like me it does for sure.plus,it's heavy.and i have to practise for a long time to be pro in handling the camera.and how long will that be?

but eyes.dslr's nothing compared to our eyes.so how much do eye cost?
appreciate while you still have.
yet,i still think wearing spectacles can be a real cool accessory,
but it'll be very leceh and uncomfortable eventually (no offencee guys/gals) because you don't have detectors on them if you misplace it.
please,i don't like tomatoes,
but i don't like to wear specs also..
and i want that dslr d90.

so,conclusion.alhamdulillah.so far my eyes funtions well.
and insyaAllah.i'll work a way to get that d90.^_^

thanks

2010-12-16T10:55:00.000+08:00

speechless.thank you Allah.thanks all.
and now i can rest in peace.muahaha.

ausmat memang the best (for now).opss,not ausmat..ausmat was a nightmare,but ausmat 21 was the one that made it wonderful.

al-fatihah~

2010-12-15T20:54:00.000+08:00

[185]
Tiap-tiap yang bernyawa akan merasai mati, dan bahawasanya pada hari kiamat sahajalah akan disempurnakan balasan kamu. Ketika itu sesiapa yang dijauhkan dari neraka dan dimasukkan ke syurga maka sesungguhnya ia telah berjaya. Dan (ingatlah bahawa) kehidupan di dunia ini (meliputi segala kemewahannya dan pangkat kebesarannya) tidak lain hanyalah kesenangan bagi orang-orang yang terpedaya.

Al-fatihah buat arwah Syukri Ali,kawan SRIAH.Semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa2nya yg lalu,dan ditempatkan di dalam syurga berserta orang2 beriman,dan semoga Allah memberi ketabahan kepada keluarganya.Amin.Amin.Amin.

current mode : tick-tock tick-tock.

dup-dap dup-dap.

zzz-zzz.

results coming out. x_x

jom!!

2010-12-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

puasa

esok

n lusa

laser.tag.without.lasers.

2010-12-09T10:21:00.000+08:00

1. Apa benda paling penting dalam hidup korang ?
depends.kecik2 dlu,susu.besar skit,game.besar skit lg,cite2 tv series.isi masa lapang.oh no.i'm pathetic..dah besar byk,baru sedar.al-Quran.

2. Benda terakhir yang korang beli guna duit korang ?
axe blue

3. Di manakah tempat korang melangsungkan perkahwinan korang dan apakah temanya nanti ?
korang kawen,tanya korang le..naah.kahwin lambat lg a.tnggu 40's ke.bela kumis,misai,jnggut dlu.

4. Adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang ?

yup......................................................eh.tak!!!sekarang tak,semalam yup..

5. Berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih korang ?

smpai ada yang baru?

6. Di manakah korang selalu berjumpa kekasih korang ?

facebook

7. Novel/ buku/ majalah terakhir di beli

errrr..........damn.cannot remember

8. Apakah nama penuh korang ?

pffffftttt..('pffffffft' tuh bila nk pkai ea?)

9. Antara mak dan ayah, mana korang lebih mesra ?

ibu ayah..(and this is what we call politics.kena jaga ati both sides..hihi)

10. Namakan orang yang betul2 korang nak jumpa dalam hidup korang.

first,rasulullah.second......third.....for now,satu je kot

11. Adakah korang basuh baju sendiri ?

kadang-kadang tak.selalu pun tak.sekali skala

12. Di manakah tempat yang korang betul2 nak pergi ?

i don't know about 'korang',but i want to go around the world.start with mekah & madinah(peaceful for ibadah),mesir(ada kwn promote),jepun(dslr murah),UK(currency tinggi value),around other europe countries(just for satisfaction),but for now,nak pergi ausie.

13. Pilih salah satu, peluk atau cium ?

pfffffffftttt....(still no idea)

14. Beritahu 3 benda tentang orang yang beri tag.

-arep suke pergi karok.hari2 arep pergi karok.

-arep suke lelaki,...yang bername adam lambert.for his vocal.no worries,arep stret.kan?ke?=P

-arep suke mkn brekfast + suke bgn awal + rjin workout + rajin belaja + rajin tido.pakej le sng cite

15. 5 benda yang paling disayangi dalam hidup anda.

bantal.katil bercadar.selimut MAS.laptop.headfon.tgk cite smpai tidur.

16. Lagu yang paling anda suka dan selalu dengar.

situasi-bunkface,fall for you-secondhand serenade,brick by boring brik-paramore,n any songs from hayley williams(paramore),n nasyid2 klasik.

17. Bila tarikh lahir dan kat mana korang sambut tahun lepas.

1st june.last time,kat secret recipe in ausie.last year,don't remember.

18. 5 rakan blogger yang korang nak tag a.k.a. suspek yang perlu di cari..

-aiman(da stop blogging)

-hariz(takde blog lg)

-syhid(satu hari kang akan ade,sbb zeti ade)

-nabil(mngkin ada in future)

-lastly,hajar.tag.ur turn =)

Directed Investigation 3

2010-12-05T15:22:00.000+08:00

thanks jepah for the explanation on dslr.you sure know a lot.he even made comparison between the prices from certain countries already.mostly,in malaysia is cheaper than australia or nz,but it'll be much cheaper in japan.oh how much i wish going to japan for such a long time.cheaper dslr?damn it.japan must go to my places-to-go-before-i-die-if-Allah-wills list.

so,what i've learnt?firstly,there are 4 stages for dslr camera users.entry level,midrange,expert,professionals.i'm no professional,no expert,no midrange,no entry level but i'm somewhere slightly below entry level called dummies.few models of dslr camera : nikon,canon,sony,olympus,etc..comparing quality,nikon and canon are very competitive.in term of price,sony might be cheaper but some says that the accessories are expensive.these are pretty much the only things that i know about dslr.one piece of advice:don't easily believe what other ppl say.go to the shop.test the camera.then you'll noe when the camera will choose you(jepah 2010).

alright.here's the picture of the wedding reception.and now,we're down to 7 more(1 bro's not in pix).mum,dad,good luck for the next 7 events ;P.. as for me,jgn nkl2.wait for your turn.hihi

FOR ABANG & KAK ZAIRA,

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU! ^_^

pros & cons list is important

2010-11-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

i like art.that's a fact.but i suck doing arts.another fact.well,i guess almost everyone does.

anyway,when will i ever own my own dslr camera.really wish one day it'll fall from the sky,right on my lap,(but please fall gently).or maybe i'll get it as a birthday present,which i recently rarely get one.no,i don't want to grow old if growing old means no birthday present.i have exactly no idea actually about the camera thingy but i seriously want one cause it's already in my list of things-i-must-have-before-i-die-if-Allah-wills.so as a beginning,i've 'google-d' the pro-and-cons of the dslr cameras under the category 'budget cameras' and 'dslr for dummies'.yeah,it surely narrows down the choices.here's the list :

Camera #1

Pros: Very friendly and easy to use, 11-point AF, decent metering.
Cons: No Live View, exposure bracketing or AF with older lenses.
Overall: A great choice for DSLR beginners who want guidance.

Camera #2

Pros: Live View. Stabilised kit lens. Remote control software.
Cons: Continuous shooting slows down in RAW mode.
Overall: An affordable 10 Mpixel DSLR with Live View and a stabilised lens.

Camera #3

nope.i guess that's it.and the 'affordable' price mentioned above,i guess not as affordable as it sounds.for a student,that is..*hoping mara will include camera dslr in the sponsoring list ;P*

2010-11-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

my eldest brother got married.oh my.i just still cannot believe it yet.well actually,if he has kids,i just can't wait to see how will it be.both kids,both dads.hehe..anyway,it's one down,and 7 more to go.i guess my parents will be professionals by the time my turn arrives in future.so be ready mum & dad,cause this is just the beginning of a pretty-late-ending story ;P
so,the good news is,my part for this event,is just to make a slideshow of the bride's and bridegroom's pictures for the view of all guest on the reception event.but the bad news is,i seriously have no idea what to do.erkh..

btw,i've watched harry potter 7 part 1.exciting,interesting,better than the movies before.and i totally agree it should be PG13.wait,PG18 seems acceptable.we watched the movie as whole siblings,and surely there are parts from the movie that might just be 'inappropriate' for kids especially the suspense and romance part.erkh..but the fact that we got the chance to watched it together,have a 'kids day-out',yeah,we had fun tonight. ;)

oh..i think i've fallen in love again..kan best if emma watson studied at intec,taking ausmat,klas noosa,sit right beside me in class..;P (hoping for her to also further study in ausie,UNSW ke,ANU ke..)

Finale Grand de Dinner

2010-11-16T16:00:00.000+08:00

"waste of time","waste money","nothing interesting",is what i would say if the finale dinner was nothing like it actually happened to be..but nope-nope.it was awe-..wait for it...-some.yeah,very-very awesomest.whaddup.and i thought i wore the worst attire,which does not really follows the theme,grammy awards,however it seems to be unimportant.who cares anyway,as long as each and everyone us had a great night and share this one unforgettable memory forever.i'll remember this one for-..yeah..-ever.ausmat had always and continuously being awesome.it was tough and rough,but who cares anymore.exam's finished.we survived.for now.i think so.hopefully.did we?don't care!!

and as i mentioned before,i'd actually became ted mosby + chuck = chuck mosby.muahaha.finally.got the chance to take pictures with roomies,friends,classmates,lecturers,dressed-up girls,suited-up boys,and alone.thanks btw to hariz and nabil for becoming my wingman;).n sorry.i was too psyched and excited to take the picture just now.no worries.next time,anytime you need my help,consider it done bros.anti-solemn low 5..=P
also tribute for aiman n syahid,fellow roomies.jom tarik tilam,tidur kat luar someday.n arep,make sure you come to my room and lepak-lepak again next time.i'll be waiting ;)..

just so that i'll never forget this great occasion,here's some pictures to be put on this 'hall of fame' as a memory..

ended ending

2010-11-14T00:59:00.000+08:00

take nothing for granted..

hey.its very nice to be friends with you guys and i'm very glad of it.my believe,that nothing as great as getting the chance of knowing people as great you were could actually be just a 'slight' of coincidence.no such things.so,ALHAMDULILLAH.He surely has arranged everything in the best way as any single thing could possibly be.there have been and will be time we question His arrangements,but eventually we'll realise someday later,perhaps a day,a year,a decade or a lifetime,that the life has been a perfect storyline for each and everyone of us.

next monday will be our finale Grand Dinner with the theme of Grammy Awards.i've been wondering a long-long time ago on how to dress-up on that day.dress-up might just seems to sound pretty awkward.guys don't dress-up.guys suit up.yeah,whaddup..ok,i might have slipped away my focus just now.anyway,today i actually bought a pair of trousers which i still having the dilemma of even wearing it cause it's kindda tight,if you know what i mean;).Also,a shirt.another ordinary black shirt,only this time the design is full with squares instead of stripes like zebras or prisoners or the 'once' newcastle's jersey.this time,i'll become chuck + ted mosby = chuck mosby?both have their own style,different in their own way.but i found 1 common between them,and i'm totally gonna be that chuck mosby thingy.a my-hair-is-just-nice-just-the-way-they-were.not that i don't care.its just that i no longer care that much.not for now maybe.sorry,its just that i'm quite excited.never've been to such dinner feeling this excited before.maybe it's hormonologoustryologistical problem?wow.did i just made a new word of hormone?

wat am i doing?esls dah hbs la..xnk ckp english dah!!oh yeah..another common: both liked the same girl..should i join d klub?=P

nerd herd

2010-09-18T18:55:00.000+08:00

welcome to malaysia,paramore..=P

the final part

2010-09-04T01:24:00.000+08:00

ninja assasin??

tazkirah ramadhan..di hujung ramadan..(lewat yg menyerlah jauh dari biasa..s0ri..)

kita suda smpai ke sesi few last days of ramadan..cek list..bezakah rmdan dis year dgn tahun2 sblum2 nh??renung2kn dan slmt beraya..

puasa ckup ka??xckup xdpt duet rye "extra large"..

s0lat??subuh ke syuruk??(jwb dgn jujur..=p)

terawih full x??

berat makin naek ke tr0n??

baju rye??sngk0k rye??brooch rye??st0kin rye??selipar rye??da beli??

motif soklan:

puasa penuh,hebat!!

berat p0n da tr0n..per0t da tough..

tp s0lat still kdg2 awl,kdg2 hjung2 nun waktu,kdg2 tnggl(mngkin x k0t)..

but sbuh n syuruk..yeah,sering kte dgr kes2 sbgini..atau mngkin sbnrnye s0lat dhuha..spe tw

but the thing is..

rmai yg terasa pemergian bln rmdan,

bgus2..

tp perasan x,habis rmdan sbnrnye lbiy krg mcm kte br hbs s0lat..

kte br hbs buat suatu yg wajib..

s0,in a nut shell,

ble hbs s0lat pon,kte patut terkesan sbb kte tym s0lat td,kte b'jmpe Allah,

ble dah hbs,kte hrp2 diberi pluang dpt jumpa Allah 4 d next waktu s0lat..

mcm yg slalu kte d0a2 supaya pnjg umor dpt smpai ke rmdan yg akn dtg..

Allahumma ballighna rmdan..!!=)

so,selamat rmdan semua..n juz 4 future reference(???),selamat hari raye..maaF zahir & batiN..beraya sakan le smntara masih diberi peluang nh..mne tw,tahun dpn,kat mne kte celebrate plak..silap2,xberkesempatan(nauzubillah)..silap2 kat australia o nz??london??afrika??india??senegal??kesimpulan : selamat hari raya!!

THETIMES

2010-08-22T11:22:00.000+08:00

spec pnjm only..not for real

kenapa tgk org lain nye blog,msti mcm bes n ble nk tulis for my own blog,mesti xde idea plus dun have skill menulis..tensen3..

anyways,lusa ada test maths,rabu ada test spec maths,nxt week test physics,few more weeks to trial,n plus few more weeks lg da final exm..so,current mood = tense + happy skit2(sbb da terbayang plan pas hbs exm sume,boleh lega gle3..)

da ada plan so much da pon for aktiviti after sace.sume mende2 tertunggak slame nh,qada' blk..dak2 nh da plan nk wat rek0d 52 hours of futsal..(happy mood increasing,tense decreasing - inversely proportional)..plus de grand dinner kat hotel empire,tema grammy..(happy2 memuncak)..da boleh stat carik suit le cmnh..hehe..as if there's my size yg dijual(my size is very far from the mean of normal distribution..kirenye,dlm 1% yg ujung kiri la)..klu nk pkai suit,n look smart,kne start gain some weight le..(azam musim raya = gain at least 8kg..meaning,klu nk achieve dlm masa 2 bulan,kne nek 0.75kg sehari..boleh ke ea??boleh2..nak bg normal weight,n normal blood pressure blk)..plus,insyaAllah the end december,results kluar..so,insyaAllah,pnjg umur,murah rezeki,early next year boleh fly..so klu hang agk2 nk happy2 dpt fly ke ausie (or nz),skang nh,hang gi study ye..boleh wat rekod futsal 52 hours dgn happy,boleh gi grand dinner dgn happy..'with strong-determination,impossible is nothing,ye adk2!!'..org kate,dlm study,takde limit..so,kte kena pakai graf exponential je..xyah susah2 pkai graph logistic..leceh le nak bikin eqn logistic..exponential lepak je wat..(tp klu blaja logisitic,boleh tw time of death(*from my last post)..boleh kira2 mcm2..)..kesimpulannya,belaja la smpai ke tua pon..xrugi..boleh?"saya org berjaye!!"(ops..hyper2!!)

p.s.: teringin amek gmbr pkai suit smat2..kang nk kawen,sng..post gmbr kat mak mertua..=P(100% kidding..xterpikir pon psl kawen lg..muke cm bdk2,ade hati nk kawen..huh!)

so petet,here's the update from me..=)

just in case, klu 'hang' bce nh(no,not u le,petet..=P) i like who we were,but i like who we are,more..so,hang pon hepi2,sume pon hepi2,so happy2 ramadan..(???..xde kaitan)..hihi..

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2010-08-18T17:43:00.000+08:00

"its weird to know when someone will die, but its exciting to know when someone died"

At 6 a.m. the temperature of a corpse is 13°C and 3 hours later it falls to 9°C. Given that living body temperature is 37°C and the temperature of the surrounding is constant at 5°C, estimate the time of death.

Yeay, I finally know how to know when people died. Pakai Newton's Law of Cooling skit, pakai Differential Calculus skit, pakai Spec Maths banyak, setel. Small matter. Habis le. Siap la hang semoa. Bunuh skit pasnh, kantoi da le ngan ak..

Anyway, that's not the main point.

no worries..i'm straight

Where can i get this kemeja? Boleh pakai di malam grand dinner. =)

popeye

2010-07-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

p.s.: tankiu to akak-yg-jage-kaunter-popeye-nh-yg-sgt-baek-sbb-tlg-explain-n-bgtw-satu-satu-menu-mknn-kat rstoran-ni-plus-sbb-bagi-kiteorg-sampel-free-curly-fries-n-sbb-tlg-tnjukkan-saiz-mangkuk-nasi-butter-cmpur-cheese-yg-sdp-sbb-kteorg-takut-kalau-kecik-kang-x-kenyang-n-lastly-sbb-asek-senyum-dari-awal-proses-smpai-habis ea..itterikimass=)

legendary

2010-07-24T00:17:00.000+08:00

~trial version only..just testing with those yg ada pictures..=P~

arghh..photoshop is so addictive!!

[A]droiti[S]m

2010-07-15T18:32:00.000+08:00

blog signature..=)

~testing black & white effects~

"tankiu ref",spain berkata

2010-07-12T15:07:00.000+08:00

Malaysia v.s. Korea

1 - 1

keeping up with the momentum of world cup,
the koreans had a futsal match yesterday evening against the 'ausmat'ians
park ji sung n amri yahyah both scored 1 goal each until the final wisel was blown
prrreettt!!...congratulations for both teams for the nice play =)

anyway..

there was this 1 incident that reminds me to refreshen my arabic + malay language skills

'One friend of mine was doing his malay study assignment,
and suddenly this question came out,

"mar..grab, bahasa melayu apa ea?"

dush!dush!

adeih..belum gerak ausie lagi ni..'

so now's the time to revise the languages..

"grab is"

"garap ialah"

"attamassuk huwa..??"

Author 'Likes' This

2010-06-18T23:49:00.000+08:00

i've finally found something that i love to do when i'm free,

and requires such least movement..yeay!!

the next time someone invites me to do activities outside my room,

i'll have excuse..=P

* EDIT MANIAC * ( beginner )

what could happen in 10 minutes?

2010-06-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

by Ahmed Imamovic - BEST SHORT FILM IN EUROPE

life's short.keep it simple.

2010-06-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

i heard this question from radio long time ago, and tertanye2, siapa org ramai will pick? .."if you get to choose, who shall be the one with what people called 'package'?you or your life partner?"

just for fun..=P

~life's too important to take it seriously~

2010-06-03T14:08:00.000+08:00

happy birthday, me!! =)

and thanks a bunch for everyone who wishes + prays for me the best for my upcoming life

i guess by getting older,i just might need to start being + think like one

but me being 19 already? * still can't believe *

Earth Hour comment

2010-04-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

Mr X

No. 9 Jalan Y

SD10/1D Bandar Z

52200 Kuala Lumpur

Malaysia

1 March 2010

Andy Ridley

Chief Executive

Earth Hour Global

60000 Sydney

Australia

Dear Sir/ Madam,

The advertisement on media masses through television, radios and newspapers inviting citizens of the world to join the Earth Hour program had caught my attention and a major number of other people around the globe. As a concern citizen on earth environment, I am more than willing to give full support on the idea of switching off the lights for an hour. 60 minutes of dark might seems ridiculous for some people as the significant is quite unclear. However, most did not realize the impacts of Earth Hour which include the symbolic of unity among worldwide nations against global warming and awareness spread throughout every individual. This work deserves most compliment and appreciation.

One significant that lies behind Earth Hour is the unity between citizens from different countries to support the effort of saving the environment. Global warming issue had brought increasing worries to the human beings each day. I realized that by sharing this common problem, individuals from more than 4000 cities of 125 countries can together support and give full commitment for the Earth Hour activity. As for an example, there was a conference held in Copenhagen last year, involving leaders from countries of each continent to discuss the global matter. I would like to congratulate the organisation handling the agenda as the idea has successfully brought nations together in saving this planet.

Also, through Earth Hour which seems small and meaningless, awareness on the importance of protecting our world from pollution is starting to spread faster and wider throughout nations. The unexpectedly large support for switching off the lights illustrates that the effort had positive responses. The symbolic of reducing waste of energy and consuming environmental friendly items are gradually ingraining in each individuals. I, for instance, has just realised that transportation and daily electricity use by world citizens had contributed a total release of approximately 27 billion tonnes of carbon dioxide every year. As it is one of the greenhouse gases, consequently it will affect to global warming. These facts shared by Earth Hour organisers had aware me of the world’s current situation and I am really thankful for it.

As a concern for the world, I would also like to suggest an idea for future improvement on the oncoming global saving events. To maximise the awareness in people, you could organise a road tour joined by representatives of participating countries, across each continents and countries to demonstrate the effective ways and roles that people could play to contribute in this effort. Through this first hand education, the idea would be more significant and clear for citizens. However, in overall, I would say that this idea is an important and noble effort and your organisation has done it well. Congratulations on this successful agenda. Thank you.

Yours faithfully,

......................

(Mr X)

any comments??

~untitled~

2010-02-18T12:05:00.000+08:00

i wonder what the geniuses,successful people before us eat everyday,

their principles and dreams,

their daily routines,

hobbies,

or maybe what they wear,

if that could influence their success.

yeah,i know everyone have their own way,

so i can't follow exactly like them.

but simply curiosity.

do they actually do things like i do?

maybe if in the morning i usually wake up late,

but them instead,they wake before dawn?

or maybe while i was playing around with facebook,

they were busy doing some research on global warming,

perhaps?

or maybe while i'm typing these things,

they are writing their own journal or book?

i kept thinking,

thinking,..

and thinking..

and zzz..zz...sweet dreams..=)

( p.s.: Bukan Kisah Benar )

~sorry wasting your time reading it..=D~

aura aur0ra~

2009-12-07T18:57:00.000+08:00

Penemuan menarik..

N0t sure if it's 0fficially true,but s0unds interesting.

Might caught m0re attnti0n of d ex-sains-stream students o medic students..

**agk2 dun hav enuf tym nak bce t0tally, juz skim thr0ugh the large, bolded w0rds t0 get d wh0le idea..

Rahsia Solat Awal Waktu

Setiap peralihan waktu solat sebenarnya menunjukkan perubahan tenaga alam ini yang boleh diukur dan dicerap melalui perubahan warna alam.

Sebagai contoh, pada waktu Subuh alam berada dalam spektrum warna biru muda yang bersamaan dengan frekuensi tiroid yang mempengaruhi sistem metabolisma tubuh. Jadi warna biru muda atau waktu Subuh mempunyai rahsia berkaitan dengan penawar/rezeki dan komunikasi. Mereka yang kerap tertinggal waktu Subuhnya ataupun terlewat secara berulang-ulang kali, lama kelamaan akan menghadapi masalah komunikasi dan rezeki. Ini kerana tenaga alam iaitu biru muda tidak dapat diserap oleh tiroid yang mesti berlaku dalam keadaan roh dan jasad bercantum (keserentakan ruang dan masa) - dalam erti kata lain jaga daripada tidur. Disini juga dapat kita cungkil akan rahsia diperintahkan solat diawal waktu. Bermulanya saja azan Subuh, tenaga alam pada waktu itu berada pada tahap optimum. Tenaga inilah yang akan diserap oleh tubuh melalui konsep resonan pada waktu rukuk dan sujud. Jadi mereka yang terlewat Subuhnya sebenar sudah mendapat tenaga yang tidak optimum lagi.

Warna alam seterusnya berubah ke warna hijau (isyraq & dhuha) dan kemudian warna kuning menandakan masuknya waktu Zohor. Spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi perut dan hati yang berkaitan dengan sistem penghadaman. Warna kuning ini mempunyai rahsia yang berkaitan dengan keceriaan. Jadi mereka yang selalu ketinggalan atau terlewat Zuhurnya berulang-ulang kali dalam hidupnya akan menghadapi masalah di perut dan hilang sifat cerianya.

Kemudian warna alam akan berubah kepada warna oren, iaitu masuknya waktu Asar di mana spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi prostat, uterus, ovari dan testis yang merangkumi sistem reproduktif. Rahsia warna oren ialah kreativiti. Orang yang kerap tertinggal Asar akan hilang daya kreativitinya dan lebih malang lagi kalau di waktu Asar ni jasad dan roh seseorang ini terpisah (tidur la tu ...). Dan jangan lupa, tenaga pada waktu Asar ni amat diperlukan oleh organ-organ reproduktif kita

Menjelang waktu Maghrib, alam berubah ke warna merah dan di waktu ini kita kerap dinasihatkan oleh orang-orang tua agar tidak berada di luar rumah. Ini kerana spektrum warna pada waktu ini menghampiri frekuensi jin dan iblis (infra-red) dan ini bermakna jin dan iblis pada waktu ini amat bertenaga kerana mereka resonan dengan alam. Mereka yang sedang dalam perjalanan juga seelok-eloknya berhenti dahulu pada waktu ini (solat Maghrib dulu la.) kerana banyak interferens (pembelauan) berlaku pada waktu ini yang boleh mengelirukan mata kita. Rahsia waktu Maghrib atau warna merah ialah keyakinan, pada frekuensi otot, saraf dan tulang.

Apabila masuk waktu Isyak, alam berubah ke warna Indigo dan seterusnya memasuki fasa Kegelapan. Waktu Isyak ini menyimpan rahsia ketenteraman dan kedamaian di mana frekuensinya bersamaan dengan sistem kawalan otak. Mereka yang kerap ketinggalan Isyaknya akan selalu berada dalam kegelisahan. Alam sekarang berada dalam Kegelapan dan sebetulnya, inilah waktu tidur dalam Islam. Tidur pada waktu ini dipanggil tidur delta dimana keseluruhan sistem tubuh berada dalam kerehatan. Selepas tengah malam, alam mula bersinar kembali dengan warna putih, merah jambu dan seterusnya ungu di mana ianya bersamaan dengan frekuensi kelenjar pineal, pituitari, talamus dan hipotalamus. Tubuh sepatutnya bangkit kembali pada waktu ini dan dalam Islam waktu ini dipanggil Qiamullail.

Begitulah secara ringkas perkaitan waktu solat dengan warna alam. Manusia kini sememangnya telah sedar akan kepentingan tenaga alam ini dan inilah faktor adanya bermacam-macam kaedah meditasi yang dicipta seperti taichi, qi-gong dan sebagainya. Semuanya dicipta untuk menyerap tenaga-tenaga alam ke sistem tubuh. Kita sebagai umat Islam sepatutnya bersyukur kerana telah di'kurniakan' syariat solat oleh Allah s.w.t tanpa perlu kita memikirkan bagaimana hendak menyerap tenaga alam ini. Hakikat ini seharusnya menginsafkan kita bahawa Allah s.w.t mewajibkan solat ke atas hambanya atas sifat pengasih dan penyayang-Nya sebagai pencipta kerana Dia tahu hamba-Nya ini amat-amat memerlukannya.

Adalah amat malang sekali bagi kumpulan manusia yang amat cuai dalam menjaga solatnya.

co00LLLL...

Hatiku di Harajuku~~

2009-12-04T15:08:00.001+08:00

"By the time you read this, I'm already in .... Japan."

I was walking around the city of Harajuku, one little city in Japan. Suddenly I felt an 'adrenaline rush' for toilet. And so I found a public toilet nearby. You'll never know how relieved I was at that time. But,suddenly I noticed one 'extraordinary' signboard right on the wall in the toilet. Oh my..

Never mind. Maybe that's just a way to show how creative people can be. Just maybe. I continued my journey, this time, with a car. I was stuck in the car, at the same place for hours, just to solve this one. Which road shall I take?

After hours of thinking, I decided to choose one, since I can't take both at the same time. So, I took right. The 'road not taken'. As I go along the road, I began to notice that I'm kind of lost. Luckily there was a gas station nearby. I stopped by to fill up the tank and also to ask for directions. This sign made my mind puzzled and jumbled. What a day!

After the long, interesting journey, I decided to go back to the hotel, which I hope to see no more 'suprises' and 'creativity'. It seems things aren't the way I hoped for. The hotel where I stayed last night, have now put this sign at the entrance. Guess I'll need to find another hotel for tonight.

"fo0L-h0use"

2009-11-22T13:35:00.002+08:00

ma h0use is 0lredi full-h0us..

literally full, i mean..

1hepi famili at h0me..alhmdulillah

d oversea's ppl has c0me bek,d sch0ol ppl starts h0liday,n 0lso the uni n k0lej ppl on sem break..

n this occur 0nly 0nce in a blue mo0n..

naah,juz exaggerating..

but i'm excited..yeay!!

gotta feeling,dat 2nyt's gonna be a gud nyt..hoohoo..

2009-11-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

asyik dgr cite dak oversea je,

dak mesia blaja pon bes gak..=P

exam dah habis..yeay!!

how's d exam??

no komen..

but d bes part nye, clbration afte exam..hehe

gaya mcm da habis final exm lak tgk

takpe2..bukan salu dpt enoy camnih an..

kalau zmn skola2 dulu,

futsal + wayang..-pergh,miss d old times-

skarang we add up sum m0re activites

futsal + wayang + konv0i trip + pnjat pagar(opss..) + late nite 'dinner' + lil' bit gitar + ....

but when musim exam comes..

tambah 0ne m0re activity to ab0ve's list..

+ study at library

call me 'nerd',but what else can i d0..

nature suka study last minit..=)

~~d0ne wif ma st0ry..saje nak alive kan balik ma bl0g..zzz..zzz..~~

Apa kata hati?

2009-09-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

When Syawal comes..

And Ramadhan passes by..

What does it mean actually?

What do people think about Raya?

What does it means to them?

"No more fasting for the year?"

"No more sahur?"

"No more tahan-tahan anymore?"

"No more completing assignments?Huh?"

"No more Mr. Nice Guy?"

"And many more 'no more's?"

No No No..

The End of Ramadhan Is Actually A Beginning

To simplify,

Lets put it analogically,

Ramadhan as a training center.

A month of training,

With no Setan bothering around.

As to see the product's quality of the training center,

Must go by the positive changes it brought after finish the trainings.

So,

when Ramadhan has passed,

No deeds should be put to end,

Instead,

Keep up the effort of doing more ibadah

"Istiqamah melakukan ibadah yang sedikit lebih baik dari mengerjakan amalan banyak yang terputus-putus"

quite late to promote..nvm

As for the ending,

WATCH BLEACH

Not just another anime

adjusting my tummy..

2009-09-20T00:17:00.001+08:00

~~~~siR-LumP-mArt huRrY rYe-yEar i-DeaL-fEeT-tReE..~~~~

ismi mr. x..

wa fi haazal 'aam,

ahfalul 'eidul fitr fi kelantan,

wa fi feraq aidhan..insyaAllah

wa laakin,

la asy'uru bi sururin,

kama asy'uru bihaflatil 'eid

'aamul assobiq..

limaza??

laisa adrii jawabuhu aidhan..

ramadhan..may 'we' meet again..amin..

chemist o0 chemist..=(

2009-09-13T08:24:00.001+08:00

{

cout << "13th September 2009 = = 23 Ramadhan"

<< "\n\t Is this year's Ramadhan better than the last ones?";

}

PHYSICS-Not just another subject..

"my hair is naturally white"

[Newton's second law states that the force applied to a body produces a proportional acceleration]

F = ma

To accelerate your ability,

Give more of somewhat called 'Force'.

[Newton's third law states that the forces of two bodies on each other are always equal and are directed in opposite directions]

Evil v.s Good.

To let your 'good-side' win,

Just simply give slight 'force'.

"Physics = Science

Science = Knowledge

Getting Knowledge is Compulsory;

Thus, I must learn Physics..heh"

~And There They Go..~

2009-09-05T12:21:00.000+08:00

"SAYA SANGAT PENAT..

MINGGU INI SANGAT MEMENATKAN..

TIAP-TIAP HARI SAYA PENAT..

SAYA SEDANG KEPENATAN.."

So much happened in a 'not so much' of time..

Tests, quizzes, pile of assignments..

Just praying and hoping it worths..

maths illiteracy,another pandemic?

2009-08-29T12:39:00.000+08:00

~~!!BEWARE!!~~

~~This Could Happen To You..~~

got c++ only?

2009-08-25T22:06:00.003+08:00

//a new language for me - c++

#include 
#include 
using namespace std;

int main ()
{
  int num1, num2;
 int a, b, c;
  int result;

  a = 123;
  b = 456;
  c = 789;
  result = a + b + c;
  num2 = num1 * 1000;

  cout << "How crazy I am, learning this C++?" <<>;
  cin  >> num1;
  cout << "How crazy you are?" <<>

  return 0;
}

Yuhoo!! Another new language for me..

~Agak jealous la tgk some people learn new language,n i don't hav one..esp Jepun..huhu

cat is a mammal?

2009-08-22T22:14:00.004+08:00

In a tired mode..

Liked the idea of making an analogy of dakwah on football game so much.Credits for Nidzam(nama sebenar?).I thought I'd heard it before somewhere,not sure where.But sure,it's nice.Thanks for reminding. Hey,it's Ramadhan already.Sleep,awake,sleep,awake,and there it comes.Suddenly Ramadhan arrives.Maybe I'm too busy with the life of study,or the life of too much enjoyment,or something else.Whatever it is,I sure barely notice the time passing by. Wah,I miss my old times.Usually at school,fasting month will be the best time ever.We'll get to see people reading al-Quran most of the time,wearing serban,pray Tarawih together,and last but not least,the best part is the fast-breaking session.Damn lots of food. But yeah,like I said before,I miss it so much.Now,the surroundings are mostly not the same as the school era.My target for the past years' Ramadhan is to at least finish one whole al-Quran in that one month. Well,never managed to achieve that one.Hoping to achieve that target this year.Sounds quite impossible for me,especially with this new surrounding where things are totally on you.'You do what you wanna do,and don't do what you don't wanna do'.Anyways,as ADIDAS always says,impossible is nothing.So lets just hope I'll get to to do it this Ramadhan. For those who are going to fly overseas not soon enough,especially Mesir and Jordan,good luck guys and girls!Hope to get the same chance of experiencing learning overseas someday later.6 years only.Small matter je.Do your best,and leave to Allah the rest.And lastly,'Selamat Hari Raya-in-advance'..=)

AN E-MAIL FROM MY MUM..=(

2009-07-31T11:46:00.004+08:00

Salam semua, Ibu(my mum) balik Kelantan 1 day, came back last night, to visit Airin(my cuzen.she got brain tumor). She is currently out of ICU, duduk kat wad kanak-kanak (those with problems related to brain). Dia sedar, tapi tak boleh cakap, doktor masukkan susu thru wire, lehernya ditebuk untuk senang handle kalau ada emergency breathing problem in the future. Relatively, since she was first admitted (with breathing problem), she is recovering well, Alhamdulillah.... Next, doktor wanted to tackle the tumor problem, tapi very, very risky operation...only 20% survival....Doktor awaiting Ayah Cik & Mak Cik's(my uncle&aunt) decision & approval....Ayah Cik thought of delaying a bit (considering the risk!) Tapi rasanya, eventually kena setuju jugak....dibiarkan pun risky jugak....Berserah kepada Allah s.w.t. untuk menentukan yang terbaik untuk Airin.... Ibu sampaikan 'hadiah', kad dan salam dari anak2 dan famili kita untuk ceriakan Airin....dia hanya mampu anggukkan kepalanya.....Kesian tenguk keadaannya....Ayah Cik & MakCik pun dah berminggu tidur di hospital...they looked very exhausted & strained....kagum tengok kesabaran mereka sekeluarga....Auni(lil sis airin) terpaksa dilayan neneknya, Shamiza & Nadia(elder siblings of airin) pandai2 bawa diri dan menghadapi persekolahan sendiri..(Sham will be sitting for his SPM this year).Weekend dia orang ziarah adiknya di hospital.... Sama2lah kita berdoa untuk Airin & keluarga Ayah Cik....Kita pun belum tentu mampu menghadapi keadaan ini sekiranya ditimpakan ke atas kita.... Ibu--- For anyone who read this,please pray 4 the best 4 my lil' cuzen and her family..she's only 11 years old..please..

H1N1's Aura

2009-07-25T11:25:00.005+08:00

IntEC - A 'Sudden' Break.. "intec's mid-sem break has been brought forward under short notice,due to cases of h1n1 in certain uitms" CAUSE

H1N1 Quarantine? No,No.. ADVANTAGE Assignments?Research? Too Short-Notice Break..No,no EFFECT Back To Old Life For A Week? Oh No..

Anyway,last week was great.There's some other new things I've learned.

First and foremost,main gitar..muahaha..(can play a Korea song)
Secondly,I'm getting better main bowling..muahaha again..(better than before,at least)

So,at least I can say that I learnt something else besides academic stuffs in IntEC. Xie xie to my 'sifu-sifu'..=) (p.s: Guitar and Bowling are just 'selingan' only.Most other times,study and assignments(??))

2009-07-13T20:28:00.002+08:00

Ijtima Jemaah Tabligh(IJT). Can you identify, Which one in the picture is me?

Argh!Sort of regretting my choice of going home instead of joining this great huge amount of great muslims.I've already wrote my name to participate this event.I've already planned to join it with a few friends.I've already got the message from a senior which handles this program of joining the IJT event,to bring along a few important things.Yet,when the time comes,suddenly I let go of this opportunity.The once in a lifetime kind of opportunity. Well,what's done is done.I'm pretty sure I won't let this thing ever happen next time.Really?Well,will try. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ke yi zhou wo de nv peng yow ma? (Hal turiidi an taj'al kalhabibi?) pu ke yi.. (Tak mahu!) zhou wo de nv peng yow la! (Just be my girlfriend) wo pu yow.. (I don't want!) xie xie.. (Arigato..)

VividImagination

2009-07-11T07:55:00.003+08:00

*Gambar hiasan semata-mata ~NEW CHINESE VOCAB FOR THE WEEK~ Ni hao ma? - (How are you/Kabare?) Jian tien,ni hen mei - (You look beautiful today/Anti jamiilun alyaum) Jien de me? - (Really?/Ma chi ka yo?) Wo pu meng pai - (I don't understand/...blur...)

These are the simple words to get an 'amoyy'..lol..Best of luck guys;)

I'mLovingIt..=)

2009-07-08T13:34:00.002+08:00

You know what? I've never got a greater class and classmates as cool as this one. ( No offense to my last classes..;) ) Sure,I'd just got into this class, but it seems so well so far. Got the same class with some roommates, some close friends, and other very supporting pals. And I forgot to mention the best part. Out of the 25 classmates, ONLY 5 of them are girls. but 5 cool girls,that is. And I still forgot to mention one other best part. One of "The 5's", is an Iranian. Never knew that IntEC is an international center,too ;)

a greater good

2009-07-04T07:53:00.003+08:00

School's great,but university's life's far greater..seriously Day 1 -

registration for 'hostel' rooms.. my room?2/302.. my first impression,lets say, shocked,but in a good way.. seems 'conducive'.. nice roommates - 5 malay,1 indian.. and so,i liked and still liking it.. plus,met some seniors - asrop ishak n aakif

Day 2 -

first time stepping in IntEC.. handsome + friendly 'pak guard'..lol

registration round 2 starts, IntEC student registration.. and in the evening, group binding..

Day 3 -

LDK for the whole day..

Day 4 -

One,last LDK.. And in the evening, or actually,night is 'the night' Malam bersama PM(Pembantu Mahasiswa) and JPK(Jawatankuasa Pelajar Kolej).. 5 main programs, AUSMAT,ADFP,ALUK,ALG,ALM, each presents a show.. and honestly,that was the best night ever..yet very entertaining..

Day 5 -

Placement test for English and Maths.. How was it? No comment

konklusinya,life's great so far..and yet many more interesting experiences to come..that's all..life's gonna be so busy for AUSMAT students after this..8.00a.m-5.00p.m,will be full with classes and homeworks..wish me luck=)

another picasso in making

2009-06-24T15:09:00.005+08:00

People say,a picture worth a thousand words. Some even say,it worth a million words, or even millions or worse,can never stop counting.. So,instead of writing much, which will create boredom, also more and more grammatical error, besides tiring myself, and waste time, which i'm doing it right now, I'll just let the great masterpiece do the talking for me..

Never imagined I could feel as much excited as now to continue study. Really hoping that 'the enthusiastic' would last long. Is life going to be harder?It's for me to know,and for me to find out..=)

hepi-faderz-dei

2009-06-23T09:53:00.004+08:00

better late than never..right?? HAPPY FATHER'S DAY,ayah!! hope you'll enjoy the JUICER we bought you..lol

what i got today..

2009-06-17T15:59:00.010+08:00

an interesting fact..

"..Baru-baru ini, Amerika Syarikat menubuhkan jawatankuasa senat untuk mengkaji sistem kewangan Islam sebagai alternatif bagi menangani krisis kewangan global yang semakin parah. Sebab itu aspek muamalah perlu diberi penekanan supaya pelajar agama memahami Islam dari perspektif lebih luas. Surah Al-Baqarah memberi penekanan aspek muamalah mengisyaratkan pentingnya budaya keusahawanan diterapkan dalam kurikulum pendidikan.."

(dipetik daripada Berita Harian)

it sure really makes me wonder.. if we,muslims,had ever done anything like that..

america is a fast developing country..wanna know why is that?click here

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next thing, (*warning!!totally a different topic from above )

"..dan boleh jadi kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu, dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu. Dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah Yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya.."

(terjemahan surah Al-Baqarah:216)

~~"..stop and stare i think i'm moving, but i go nowhere yeah, i know that everyone gets scared but i've become what i can't be.."~~

(STOP AND STARE by One Republic)

so, next time anything don't go by our plans just stop and stare.. (p.s : and don't interpret 'stare' literally,though..)

renung-renungkan,dan selamat beramal..=)

laughing stock

2009-06-15T11:16:00.007+08:00

warming welcome to hell..

bijak wang..

2009-06-07T07:10:00.003+08:00

when it comes to money,the attraction is so irresistible.. no,don't get me wrong.. not as an obsession,though.. so,try to understand this formula.. and practice it,of course.. 1. ( income ) - ( savings ) = ( expenses ) 2. ( income ) - ( expenses ) = (savings ) which formula of saving money, that you think.. would be more effective?? renung,renungkan..dan selamat beramal..=D

hint : pay yourself first,then pay others(tax)

charging up "the brain"..

2009-06-05T22:48:00.004+08:00

it has been,erm.. what,half-a-year perhaps? 6 month?? that long, i'm pretty sure some warming-up might be majorly useful.. wakie,wakie brain-o.. no more of our 'alone-time'.. now.. goodbye sleepy.. hello study.. and welcome back to my life..=D

@what can i say.. @the house loves me so much,that i dare not to leave it.. @lol.. @just another thing that i used to call blabbering..

4-in-1

2009-06-01T22:14:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to All!! 1 First,for my long-time-no-see pal Salam Othman 2 Secondly,for my ex-arabic-language-teacher Ustazah Zurhayana 3 Third,for my friend's mother 4 Forth,for someone who I call,myself. 1,2,3,4.. There's only 1 thing,2 do,3 words,4 you.. Happy Birth-Day(3 words right?)

Up Up & Away..

2009-05-20T09:04:00.009+08:00

Everyone seems busy with their same,typical life each day. Studies,examinations,work,assignments,sleep(???). Same routine everyday - so lame. Why don't take a break ,have a kit-kat ,and watch this out..=) CHUCK For any CHUCK's fan out there,here are some newest updates about the next coming season .. NBC announced its 2009-'10 schedule today. A lot of the media coverage focused on "Chuck" and the innovative Subway deal that helped bring the show back. Some thoughts and links on various "Chuck" and NBC development are here:

News of "Chuck's" renewal leaked out over the weekend . The word then was that the show's budget had been cut, but in a conference call with the media, NBC co-chair Ben Silverman said that was not the case. And it sounds like a sponsorship deal with Subway will help the show's bottom line. The New York Times reports that next season, Sarah Walker will work at a Subway sandwich shop (previously she worked at a frozen-yogurt store and at a hot dog restaurant).
Also, "Chuck" will still air on 8 p.m. Eastern Mondays(in US), but it won't return until March, after the 2010 Olympics. Right now, the order is for 13 episodes, but that order could increase and the show could run through the summer if "Chuck" does well. Co-creator Josh Schwartz told TV Week he was fine with NBC's decision. "We have the best audience in the world and we will do everything we can to make this worth the wait," he said. (By the way, "Chuck's" Vik Sahay, a.k.a. Lester, thanked fans here.)

HEROES For any "Heroes"'s fan,"Heroes" will take the 8 p.m. Eastern time slot in the fall.So,get ready.. In case you’ve been reading other sites besides this one (shame on you!), you already know that we reported a month ago that NBC has all but guaranteed a fourth season of Heroes. So, knowing that your favorite show will be back, this open thread was created for you, the loyal Heroes viewer, to express your thoughts on what you want to see, and what you don’t want to see in the coming season. What’s been bugging you about Heroes that you hope won’t be continued in Season 4? What’s been missing that you’d like to see remedied? There’s no guarantee that Tim Kring and company will read this and take your advice, but hey, don’t let that stop you.

MIKHAIL

2009-05-04T18:06:00.003+08:00

MIKHAIL is the title for a novel written by Ramlee Awang Murshid,the #1 thriller novelist.He sure did a pretty good writing,because he surely caught my interest for reading.And FYI,me and reading,can rarely be 'together'.So,congratulations for that! Now I wonder,how come until now,there's no single director in Malaysia,who even made a movie based on the terrific novels written by our great novelist?Why is that??

ipta..lalala~

2009-05-03T07:45:00.001+08:00

Semakan Keputusan Permohonan Kemasukan ke IPTA Program Pengajian Lepasan SPM/Setaraf Sesi Akademik 2009/2010

NO. KAD PENGENALAN / MYKAD	:	910601145057
NAMA	:	MUHAMMAD AMMAR BIN MOHD ADAM

TAHNIAH!

Anda telah berjaya ditawarkan program pengajian seperti berikut :

KOD PROGRAM : Y0400 NAMA PROGRAM : ASASI KEJURUTERAAN IPTA : UNIVERSITI ISLAM ANTARABANGSA MALAYSIA (UIAM) URL SURAT TAWARAN : http://www.iiu.edu.my/tawaran.html

CATATAN : 1) Calon boleh mencapai Surat Tawaran melalui laman web mulai 04 Mei 2009 dan calon WAJIB mengesahkan SETUJU TERIMA TAWARAN sebelum 15 Mei 2009.

SURAT TAWARAN BANTUAN ASASI IPTA : SILA KLIK DI SINI 15 MEI ??Adoyai..

And the winner is..

2009-04-29T12:13:00.007+08:00

Wa..Seriously,I'm so interested in debate..Either watching people debate,or participating the debate,both of it seems interesting..But to be honest,I'm not really good at it..Will try to improve the skills,starting with overcoming my stage fright first of course.. And so it begins..Now, the struggles continues in the 8th Interschool Debating Championship 2009. As many as 160 debate teams, that are 80 teams per category,participated this year. These 640 young debaters resided in the Garden of Knowledge and Virtue, the International Islamic University Malaysia (Main Campus, Gombak, Selangor), throughout the championship. The competition runs from 24th to 29th April 2009. Pusingan akhir kejuaraan perdebatan antara sekolah-sekolah yang kelapan(Debat Bahasa Melayu) ini bermula.Usul dibincangkan,"Undang-undang Jawapan Terbaik Bagi Masalah Kebejatan Moral".Pihak kerajaan,dari Sekolah Menengah Islam Al-Hidayah(SMIH),terdiri daripada dua hawa berketrampilan,dan seorang adam berwibawa.Di barisan pembangkang pula,dari Sekolah Tuanku Abdul Rahman(STAR),di mana kesemuanya,sudah pasti jejaka-jejaka intelek. Maka,perdebatan bermula.. Kerajaan memperjelas bahawa,frasa 'jawapan terbaik',membawa makna,antara banyak-banyak langkah mengatasi,hanya SATU itulah yang terbaik.Katanya,jikalau ramai yang datang berdebat pada hari ini,hanya SATU yang akan menjadi juara.Sudah tentulah,hanya SATU juara,iaitu yang terbaik.Istilah undang-undang,tidak diperincikan kepada mana-mana bahagian spesifik.Maka secara umumnya,tidak kiralah apa jua undang-undang,sama ada perlembagaan,juvana,atau apa sahaja yang ada di negara kita,yang boleh digunapakai dalam mengatasi kebejatan sosial ini.HUKUMAN DAN TINDAKAN SUSULAN melalui undang-undang dibuktikan dengan kes buli yang menular di kalangan pelajar sekolah.Diberi pula contoh,daripada 10 orang yang dikenakan tindakan undang-undang,sekurang-kurangnya 2 daripadanya telah berubah.Maka itu suatu perubahan yang jelas undang-undang boleh lakukan.Dan itu suatu yang positif. Pembangkang sebaliknya,berdiri tegas,tetap dengan pendiriannya,mengatakan bahawa TINDAKAN DAN PELAKSANAAN yang menjadi tunjang utama dalam mengatasi kebejatan moral masa kini.Berdasarkan analisa jumlah kes yang bertambah daripada tahun lepas,dibandingkan dengan tahun ini,pihak pembangkang mempertahankan bahawa undang-undang yang tidak dilaksanakan,bukanlah jawapan terbaik mengatasi kebejatan masalah moral.Sebaliknya,tindakan individu sendiri,selepas pelaksanaan undang-undang,yang menjadi hujah utama mereka.Ditimbulkan persoalan,bagaimana undang-undang bisa mengubah,andainya tiada tindakan dan pelaksanaan?Tambahan lagi,bukti kes telah dipinta oleh pembangkang daripada pihak kerajaan. Maka,kerajaan merasakan suatu kepincangan dalam hujah pihak pembangkang.Berdiri Menteri kedua,menjawab persoalan tersebut.Katanya,pihak pembangkang sudah lupa usul yang dibincangkan.Sepatutnya,pihak pembangkang memberikan sebab-sebab mengapa undang-undang bukan jawapan terbaik,bukannya menyenaraikan punca kebejatan masalah moral.Bahkan,jikalau ingin mengatakan undang-undang bukan jalan terbaik,berikan sekurang-kurangnya SATU lagi jawapan lain yang lebih munasabah bagi mengatasi masalah ini. Berdirinya pembidas segala hujah kerajaan,menegakkan kembali pendirian pembangkang.Dikatakan kesemua hujah kerajaan tidak berasas.Analisa jumlah kes yang meningkat pada tahun ini,diulang dan diingatkan semula kepada kerajaan.Contoh yang diberikan oleh pihak kerajaan mengenai kes buli dalam kalangan sekolah,ditentang dengan membawa bukti dari sekolahnya sendiri,STAR.Katanya,biarpun hampir 20 pelajar pernah dibuang sekolah kerana kes sedemikian suatu masa dahulu,masalah ini masih wujud, bahkan ia semakin menular dan menjadi-jadi.Dan di akhir hujahnya,masih lagi menuntut bukti kes yang kukuh bagi menyokong segala hujah yang diberikan pihak kerajaan. (p.s.: all the above information are based on what i watched only.so,sorry-in-advance for any wrong information) As for the results.. English debate : Winner - not sure of it's name.most probably a daily school.and all of 'em are chinese(one of 'em got the best debater award) Runner-up - SMIH Debat Bahasa Melayu : Winner - SMIH Runner-up - STAR(one of 'em got the best debater award)

Can I Borrow $25 Anyone??

2009-04-28T19:18:00.001+08:00

Can I Borrow $25? A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door. SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?' DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man. SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?' DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily. SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?' DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.' SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down. SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?' The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities. ' The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door. The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money? After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door. 'Are you asleep, son?' He asked. 'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy. 'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.' The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father. 'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled. 'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied. 'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.' The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness. It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love. If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

Never forget your promise..

2009-04-24T14:51:00.003+08:00

Al-An'aam 6 : 162 - 163

قُلْ إِنَّ صَلاَتِي وَنُسُكِي وَمَحْيَايَ وَمَمَاتِي لِلّهِ رَبِّ الْعَالَمِينَ ﴿١٦٢﴾

162:

Say: "Truly, my prayer and my service of sacrifice, my life and my death, are (all) for Allah, the Cherisher of the Worlds:

لاَ شَرِيكَ لَهُ وَبِذَلِكَ أُمِرْتُ وَأَنَاْ أَوَّلُ الْمُسْلِمِينَ ﴿١٦٣﴾

163:

No partner hath He: this am I commanded, and I am the first of those who bow to His will.

...continue...

2009-04-16T15:11:00.002+08:00

continued from recent post... this time,it's mara's interview.. i arrived mara HQ around 9.45 a.m.my interview was actually supposed to start at 10 a.m.the moment i arrived,the place was already crowded with people.boys,or rather we can call men now,with their ties and some with blazers.girls,or ladies,with their baju kurungs and stylish tudungs.all seemed like executives and corporate people.for boyish faces,now seems more like grown ups.well,18 is a big number right.so,better act like one. panel 14,my panel for interview was on the 18th level.after just a short while i got there,on the 18th floor,my name was called.and so the interview begins.. as usual,i was told to start by telling my profile and some backgrounds of my life.then,they asked about the co-curricular activities i've joined during the school days.until one point,where i told that i've participated arabic debate,the panel started to test me in arabic language.among the question they asked,in arabic language,"what's your name?where do you want to further your studies?why did you chose the country?why don't you want to further you studies in mesir?".(well,that's what i understood.not sure if its right.lol).wow,then i noticed,"how long did i left arabic language?i almost forget all the vocabs".luckily there were still few arabic words i remembered.just a few.seriously. then,back to english.i was to explain the course i wanted to take,also with the specific field,the country i chose,and of course,the reasons for all i have chosen.and after that,i will have to defend the choice i've made.that's all. and so,that's the end of my interview season.now,just wait and pray and hope..

...lalala...

2009-04-15T19:12:00.006+08:00

and so it begins.. it has been such a long while i left 'blogging world'.. so..since i have no idea what to write,i think its better for me to share my personal experience from the past utp interview.. i arrived at utp,teronoh,perak at around 6 p.m..the interview program or better known as 'educamp' is actually started on the next morning,but since that my father works the next day,i was left earlier at the university.i actually thought that i would be the only one who comes early,but surprisingly,there were quite a few others that came as early as i did.however,each of us were placed in different rooms.my room number is 6,level 2.and my roommates are aaron,an indian,also from kl,and jeremy,a chinese,from seremban.cool buddies.very welcoming.so,my first impression about utp,is that they have great students,for sure. long story,short.the next day,many other participants of this educamp arrived and they started registrating.all of them were placed at the hostel outside utp,which i think,i was fortunate to get the hostel inside the university.this means less distance to eating place,to mosque,and to the chancellor hall.however,less distance doesn't means its near.utp has such a large area,which makes each building far apart from each other.i might say its a walking distance,but the moment you arrive your destination,you would really need a bottle of water,especially on sunny days..so,realizing the facts,luckily,they prepared a bus from the hostel to the destinations,everytime before and after each program.the first day,there was nothing much activity.they started with briefings on the activities on schedule.and in the evening,they brought us around the campus.honestly i say,the environment was very pleasant,the surroundings were very peaceful,the laboratories seems interesting,and the library was damn cool.i don't know how to explain it,but i think everyone will agree with me after they've seen it.and at night,we got maths and science tests.not bad,try again. the 2nd day was the interesting part of this educamp.we have interviews and a few other tests.we were separated into 2 groups.first group,will have their interview in the morning,and tests in the evening.and the 2nd group would be otherwise.and i am on the first group.we were to face 2 interviews,individual and group interviews.well,i'll rather say that it is more to presentation.given with a case study,and a solution each,we have to either agree or disagree with it.during the individual interview,we have to present it in front of the panels.and on the 2nd round,the group interview,we have to discuss in groups of 4 or 5,in front of the panels,and come out with only one solution.the case study we got was 'traffic jam',and the solution given to me was 'improving road system'.the interview wasn't so bad after all.at least,not as i've always imagined before.my group,each of us,was satisfied with what the final solution we have come out with.'develop ict in our country,so that we can do all our job just by simply do it from home,maybe using internet.by that,number of cars on road can be minimized'.so,agree everyone?? thats all from me..out of idea..

My rich dad was not yet rich, and My poor dad not yet poor..??

2009-03-31T17:48:00.004+08:00

New to Rich Dad?

I had two dads - a rich one and a poor one.

One dad was highly educated and intelligent; he had a Ph.D. and had completed four years of undergraduate work in less than two years. He then went to Stanford University, the University of Chicago, and Northwestern University to do his advanced studies, all on full, financial scholarships.

My other dad never finished the eighth grade. Both men were successful in their careers, working hard all their lives. Both earned substantial incomes.

Yet one dad struggled financially all his life and the other dad would become one of the richest men in Hawaii. One died leaving tens of millions of dollars to his family, charities, and his church. The other left a legacy of unpaid bills. Both men were strong, charismatic, and influential. Both men offered me advice, but they did not advise the same things.

Contrasting points of view

Having two dads as advisors offered me the perspective of contrasting points of view: one of a rich man and one of a poor man. The problem was that my rich dad was not yet rich, and my poor dad not yet poor. Both were just starting out in their careers; both were struggling with money and families.

But, regardless of those commonalities, both had very different points of view on the subject of money.

One dad would say, "The love of money is the root of all evil." The other, "The lack of money is the root of all evil." Having two dads - and loving them both - forced me to think about, and ultimately choose, a way of thinking for myself.

I had to think about each dad's advice and, in doing so, gained valuable insights into the power and effect of one's thoughts on one's life. For example: My poor dad had a habit of saying, "I can't afford it." My rich dad forbade those words to be used. He insisted that I say, "How can I afford it?" One is a statement, the other a question. One lets you off the hook; the other forces you to think. My rich dad would explain that by automatically saying the words "I can't afford it" your brain stops working. By asking the question "How can I afford it?" your brain is put to work.

pirate copy from http://www.richdad.com/

tagged??

2009-03-30T15:41:00.006+08:00

1. Apakah hubungan awak dan dia? (dia tu org yang tagged kite kut)

ex-school mate??

2. 5 impressions terhdp dia

Dia dulu nakal,sekarang baik..Dulu ganas wo,skarang better kowt..Dulu lg tnggi,skang lg rndh..lol..rajin n pemurah(da puji nh,ble nk blanje??haha..)

3. Perkara yang paling memorable yang die lakukan kat awak..

tagged me??

4. Perkara paling memorable yang dia kata pada awak..

"1+1 brape ye??"

5. Kalau die kekasih awak.. awak akan..

Clash serta merta..lol..kiddin',no offence

6. Kalau dia jadi musuh awak. awak akan..

"Setel luar a.."(pinjam ayat member..)

7. Kalau die kekasih awak.. dia perlu improve dlm..

aduyai..tensen tol nk pkir jwpn cepu mas nh..

8. Kalau dia jadi musuh awak... mungkin kerana...

dia cari gado2??

9. Overall impression ttg dia..

selamat hari raya!!

10. The most desirable thing to do to her/him(her)

ayoyo..sapi....GO!!

11. Apakah awak rasa ttg pandangan org terhadap awak?

Saya tinggi

12. The character of you for yourself?

zzzzz...zzz..

13. On contrary, the character you hate about you..

saya terlalu rajin..

14. The most ideal person you want to be with?

aish..no komen

15. For people who like you.. tell sumthing about them.

they're evil..huahuahua!!

16. Ten people you tag:

siti
fatimah
azzahrah
binti
nazri
??
if
i've
not
mistaken..

17. No.2 ada hubungan dgn siapa?

dgn famili de..

18. Is no. 3 female or male..

minah..

19. If no.7 and 10 have a relationnship. Is it a good thing?

xley byg..

20. Mcmmane dgn no.5 dan no.8?

d bes kapel of d year!!

21. No.4 single kah?

stakat nh..not 4 long..

22. No. 1 belajar apa?

silat + taekwando + kung fu + bla bla..

23. Say sumething about no. 6.

misteri..

24. No. 9 klakar tak?

yup..eh,tak..eh,yup..eh,tak..

NO COPYRIGHTS PLEASE!!

2009-03-27T23:10:00.009+08:00

..A SnoWy sToRy..

2009-03-25T13:34:00.001+08:00

Musim yang telah lama kunantikan kini tiba.Dengan penuh harapan,mengimpikan keseronokan bermain salji,aku membuka pintu rumah.Grrr...Sejuk sungguh!Suhu yang lebih rendah daripada takat beku ais,tidak pernah kubayangkan sedingin ini.Pintu yang kubuka tadi,pantas kututup semula.Tidak mungkin aku keluar dengan pakaian begini sahaja.Sekurang-kurangnya,3 lapisan baju sejuk baru bisa menepis kedinginan hawa di luar sana.Angan-anganku untuk keluar bermain salji kini semakin pudar.Fikiran mula berbolak balik.Patutkah aku mempertaruhkan keselesaan diri demi memuaskan nafsu keinginanku?Atau patutkah aku sia-siakan peluang bermain salji yang telah lama kunantikan selama ini? Kelihatan anak-anak kecil jiran berbangsa Inggeris bermain riang di hadapan rumahku.Alah bisa,tegal biasa.Pada fikiranku,mungkin kerana sejak kecil telah dibesarkan dalam suasana sebegini,mereka kelihatan sudah biasa dengan suhu sedingin ini.Malah,mereka kelihatan begitu seronok bagaikan bukan berdiri di atas hamparan salji yang sejuk.Gumpalan salji di tangan,dilempar kepada rakan-rakan.Lalu dibalas pula oleh rakan-rakan mereka.Meskipun kelihatan seperti tiada apa,namun sebenarnya,keseronokan bermain itu amat kucemburui.Dengan rasa cemburu yang berbuku di hati itu,bisa menghangatkan semangatku untuk turut keluar bermain salji.Baju sejuk kucapai.Bukan sehelai,bukan dua,tetapi tiga helai.Lalu kusarungkan 3 lapisan stokin,sepasang sarung tangan,kemudian ditambah lagi selapis,dan lagi selapis,sepasang snow cap pula,dan akhir sekali,sepasang kasut.Dengan langkah yang gagah,kulangkah keluar.Harapan menggunung,agar aku tidak melangkah kembali selepas beberapa langkah di luar. The cold,shivering wind blew again and again.It hit my face and I could feel it going right through my cheek,to the bones.Freezing to death.The temperature might as well decreased way below the freezing point,I thought.Looking to the kids playing around,I pushed myself hard not to look back.I walked towards the nearest playground,which was just a stone throw away distance.Each step I took felt so heavy.Luckily the snow was not so thick.Yet still,it made me felt as if I had no feet at all.I couldn't feel my feet anymore.Neither could I feel my face.I fell right to the ground. And the next thing I knew,I was lying on my bed alone,back to reality.Snow in Malaysia?Nonsense..

Not only P..

2009-03-23T10:36:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since I've got my driving license.. Just to share my JPJ driving test experience.. So we went to Cheras,to have our driving test.We??'We' are me and my new pals I met in the car on the way to Cheras.Shafiq,a SBP student in Jengka.Seong Hyun,18,a korean who had lived in M'sia for half a decade,yet don't know any Bahasa Melayu,except for "satu,dua,tiga,empat",and that's all.And lastly,Azura,which I don't really know anything about her. We arrived quite late.There were so many people already.But luckily they haven't started yet.So,my lucky number was number H099 which means 'Hijau' number 99.After 98 people had done their first part of driving test,then my turn comes.Syafiq got number 100 and Seong Hyun got number 114. So,meanwhile waiting for our name to be called,we get to know each other.And to talk with Seong Hyun a.k.a Ross(English name),we have to speak English.It was quite difficult for me,but still quite interesting.At least my oral English gets better. And while waiting,BOOM KEDEBOOM BANG BANG BOOM..There was an accident.A girl accidentally pressed the acceleration pedal at the corner,until she crashed with the car in front of her.I'm pretty sure she didn't passed the driving test.She went out of the car and went away.Surely she would have to pay for all the trouble she've caused.And another thing,the driver in front of her most probably will be in a trauma.lol.. And here comes my turn.Alhamdulillah.Not as hard as I've always thought before.So,all of us passed the first round.We went to the second part.The 'on-the-road' test. Names and numbers weren't called in order.So,this time,Seong Hyun who got the bigger number than me and Syafiq,was the first one to be called.Syafiq and I waited until evening for our turn to come.Then,Syafiq was called.After a few moments later,then my name was called.Huh,finally.. This is it.My turn to drive.And to make it more interesting,it was already raining heavily.So,I drove really carefully,not to go across the double line,to stop when I see BERHENTI and to stop when I see the red light.Quite nervous,I was.But luckily,I was given the 2nd route.In this route,I can speed up to gear 4 or 5,and it was quite easy to remember the road.However,with extra care to follow all the road rules. Alhamdulillah once again.I've managed to reach back safely and most shockingly,no accident happened.lol.. And there you go.That day,I got P,I got new experience,I got new friends,and I achieved something new in my life. lol.Making big out of such a small thing...

Man v.s. Woman 2

2009-03-18T12:39:00.000+08:00

Comedy:: Let's say a small group of men and women are in a room, watching television, and an episode of "The Three Stooges" comes on. Immediately, the men will get very excited; they will laugh uproariously, and even try to imitate the actions of Curly, man's favorite stooge. The women will roll their eys and groan and wait it out.
Handwriting:: To their credit, men do not decorate their penmanship. They just chicken-scratch. Women use scented, colored stationary and they dot their "i's" with circles and hearts. Women use ridiculously large loops in their "p's" and "g's". It is a royal pain to read a note from a woman. Even when she's dumping you, she'll put a smiley face at the end of the note.
Bathrooms:: A man has at most six items in his bathroom - a toothbrush, toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of Dial soap, and a towel from the Holiday Inn. The average number of items in a typical woman's bathroom is 437. A man would not be able to identify most of these items.
Going out:: When a man says he is ready to go out, it means he is ready to go out. When a woman says she is ready to go out, it means she will be ready to go out, as soon as she finds her other earring, finishes putting on her makeup...
Shoes:: When preparing for work, a woman will put on a Mondi wool suit, and then slip into Reebok sneakers. She wil carry her dress shoes in a plastic bag from Saks. When a woman gets to work, she will put on her dress shoes. Five minutes later, she will kick them off because her feet are under her desk. A man will wear one pair of shoes for the entire day.
Mirrors:: Men are vain; they will check themselves out in the mirror. Women are ridiculous; they will check out their reflections in any shiny surface--mirrors, spoons, store windows, toasters, Joe Garagiola's head.
The Telephone:: Men see the telephone as a communications tool. They use the telephone to send short messages to other people. A woman can visit her girlfriend for two weeks, and upon returning home, she will call the same friend and they will talk for three hours.
Low Blows:: Let's say a man and a woman are watching a boxing match on television. One of the fighters is felled by a low blow. The woman says "Oh, gee, that must hurt." The man doubles over and actually feels pain.
Directions:: If a woman is out driving and she finds herself in unfamiliar surroundings, she will stop at a gas station and ask for directions. Men consider this to be a sign of weakness. Men will never stop and ask for directions. Men will drive in a circle for hours, all the while saying things like, "Looks like I've found a new way to get there", and, "I know I'm in the neighborhood. I recognize that White Hen store".
Dressing up:: A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the garbage answer the phone, read a book, get the mail. A man will dress up for: weddings, funerals.
David Letterman:: Men think David Letterman is the funniest man on the face of the Earth. Women think he is a mean, semi-dorky guy who always has a bad haircut.

Engineering or Japan??

2009-03-18T12:16:00.007+08:00

I'm quite confused here.. Not sure since when that I've always been dreaming to further my studies in Japan.. Which means,taking Engineering right? Can't be Syariah or Medic..That is so not Japan at all.. So,after SPM results went out.. Jeng Jeng Jeng.. Alhamdulillah,my 'not-so-bad' results might 'allow' me to continue my studies in Engineering.. But not really sure if I'm qualified for overseas programme.. So yesterday, I thought again and again.. Is it Japan or Engineering that I have always wanted all this while?? What is it with Japan that I always wanted to go there?? Takpele..Kalau xde rzki kali nh,pnjg umo,I'll reach there someday somehow.. Wait for me JAPAN!!Yatta!!

Fuuhh..At last

2009-03-12T16:57:00.002+08:00

This week was one tough week.Monday,the last practice b4 the JPJ driving test.Tuesday,job interview.Wednesday,driving test.And finally,today,Thursday,the SPM results. So,about the job interview.Not much I can say because it took only 5 - 10 minutes,I think.Just a few simple questions need to be answered about the job.They just wanna make sure I'm clear with the job I'm gonna take.But actually,I don't think that I'll get the job.And I don't really care.If I get it,I'll do my best.If not,I'll do other things.After all,I might get quite bz after this.Results are out.So,there maybe a lot of forms for universities and scholarships I'll need to apply and fill in. Ujian JPJ??Perghh..Smpai ke petang menunggu.Antara orang-orang yang terakhir dipanggil kot.Mula-mula,buat ujian bukit,parking dan 3 point turn.Lepas tu,terus pergi ke ruang menunggu utk ujian 'on d road'.Tunggu punya tunggu,hujan pun turun dgn lebatnya.Alhamdulillah,hujan rahmat.Dan ketika hujan penuh berkat turunlah,giliran smpai.Memang payah lagi susah memandu dlm hujan.Mujurlah,dgn kepakaran dan berkat hujan rahmat tu,dpt la lulus dgn cmerlang.19/20..Tahniah!Terima kasih..Dan spnjg hari memandu tu,sempat la berkenalan ngan beberapa member-member baru.Termasuklah seorang budak Korea ni.Pergh,speaking je le ngan dia.Dapat la meng'improve'kan dan 'sharpen' skil berbahasa Inggeris.Macam-macam borak ngan dia.Memang baik la dia.Namanya,Seong Hyun(Real name - how to pronounce the name properly??) ataupun Ross(English name)..Selamat kenalan semua! SPM results??Jeng jeng jeng..Better to keep it a secret.It's not so great,not so bad.Alhamdulillah,anyway..Not as I expected,but quite happy with it.Just one thing to brag,I've got 1A for my addmaths.lol.Really couldn't believe it.So,looking at my results,I think,most probably,I'll choose to take Engineering.And insyaAllah,I'll try my best to apply for further studies in Japan.Wish me luck everyone..=D And now,I really need a long,but not so long,sleep.I need some rest.Nitez.. THE END

faLL 4 you..??wHat aBout nOw..??

2009-03-10T10:48:00.003+08:00

*secondhand serenade-fall for you* The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting Could it be that we have been this way before I know you don't think that I am trying I know you're wearing thin down to the core But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find Your impossible to find This is not what I intended I always swore to you i'd never fall apart You always thought that I was stronger I may of failed But I have loved you from the start Ohhhh But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find It's impossible So breathe in so deep Breathe me in I'm yours to keep And hold onto your words Cuz talk is cheap And remember me tonight When your asleep Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I wont live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find Your impossible to find *chris daughtry-what about now* Shadows fill an empty heart As love is fading, From all the things that we are But are not saying. Can we see beyond the scars And make it to the dawn? Change the colors of the sky. And open up to The ways you made me feel alive, The ways I loved you. For all the things that never died, To make it through the night, Love will find you. What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Baby, before it's too late, What about now? The sun is breaking in your eyes To start a new day. This broken heart can still survive With a touch of your grace. Shadows fade into the light. I am by your side, Where love will find you. What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love had never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Baby, before it's too late, What about now? Now that we're here, Now that we've come this far, Just hold on. There is nothing to fear, For I am right beside you. For all my life, I am yours. What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love had never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? What about now? What about today? What if you're making me all that I was meant to be? What if our love had never went away? What if it's lost behind words we could never find? Baby, before it's too late, Baby, before it's too late, Baby, before it's too late, What about now?

Tagged??

2009-03-05T21:35:00.003+08:00

1. Do you think you're hot? -No,I'm cold 2. Upload a favourite picture of you 3. Why do you like that picture. -one happy family at home..except ma eldest bro,all ma siblings r in d pix.. 4. When was the last time you ate pizza? -19th Feb 09'.ma brother's besday.. 5. The last song you listened to? -Apologize(Timbaland feat. One Republic) 6. What are you doing now besides this? -Watch t.v. 7. What name would you prefer than this? -x fhm 8. Who is No 1? -me 9. No 3 is having relationship with? -me 10. Say something about no 5 -no 5 is my friends faveret number 11. How about no 4? -no 4 is weird

Man v.s. Woman

2009-03-04T17:06:00.005+08:00

Men are from Mars;Women are from Venus;They speak different languages... Agree?? People say.. "Women understand colour. They seem to know what to wear all the time. Men just think red is nice, pink is nice, so why not have them together?" "Women recall every outfit they have worn for the past two decades. Men cannot remember what they were wearing yesterday without looking on the floor next to the bed." " Men have the ability to make a la, la, la, not listening face." " Women have the Oh dear, the toilet paper is on its last sheet; must replace it immediately gene. This is entirely absent in men who have the Oh s..t! Can you pass me a toilet roll, love? gene! " " On being told that someone has bought a new car women usually ask what colour it is - men ask what sort is it." " Women know instinctively what is dangerous or not recommended for babies in their care. Men, generally speaking, do not." " Women put things on the bottom stair to take up next time she has to go upstairs. Men just step over them until told to pick them up" " Men speak in sentences. Women speak in paragraphs." " Men can balance an infinite amount of rubbish in the bin, without noticing it is full." " If you told a woman that you had just returned from a trip to the surface of the Moon, she would show her interest by asking who you had gone with." "When men want something they ask for it. When women want something they make a point distantly related to the subject and wait for a response." " Men have the capacity to sleep through most sounds, whether it is a baby crying, dog barking, or doorbell ringing." " Men know that common house spiders are far less dangerous than scorpions." lol.funny..

Can't Wait..

2009-03-01T22:00:00.002+08:00

Next week will be my best week.The most 'cannot wait' week ever.One of the day,might be the day that will decide my whole life.Another day is just a day that I've been waiting for quite a while.And the other day,will help me through the days after.And the last day,is just something for a break for all that had happened throughout the tough week. First of all,10th March.Tuesday,it is.That day,I've been waiting for 3 months,which is for me,quite a long period.The PLKN participants will return home.Huh,finally!Welcome back,guys!And girls..Congratulation for all of you who actually survived 3 months,locked up in an army-type of camp!And of course,I can imagine how different they will be after their return.For boys,a real short hair,for sure.And most probably,become tougher and stronger.For girls,maybe we will not even recognize them anymore.Fair skin,will turn dark brown.Or worse.lol.Anyway,hope you guys learn a lot from PLKN.At least we won't worry if our country is under attack.You guys will help defend it,right? Next,on the 11th March.My JPJ test will be held.It was suppose to be on the 6th March,but that was already fully-booked.So the only day,will be on that Wednesday.I've been tought a lot about driving.So I really hope I won't mess up on the test day.I can't wait any longer to get the driving license.And I think,right after I get the license,I'm pretty sure that it will be me who will have to pick up my brother and sister from school everyday.Don't really care.At least,I can sharpen my driving skills. Thursday,12th March.I heard rumors and news everywhere that SPM is most probably be announced on that day.That very important day,that will actually decide my path afterwards.I've been waiting for this day to come along for so long,yet the nearer it comes,the greater my fear.The greater my heart beats.How will my result be?Just pray,for now.It's the best I can do at this moment.12A1's in my hand?InsyaAllah.Amin. The next day,13th March,my brother will go to Jitra,Kedah for a ping pong match.And our family,me,my parents,my sister and probably my brother will be following him to Kedah as well.So there is two possiblities now.I might say it is a vacation to celebrate my great SPM results,or nauzubillah,to bring me hope again,after getting a not-so-great results.I prefer the first one.Pray the best for me,everyone.And never to worry to get your rewards back from Allah.He must grant your wishes as well as you prayed to Him.Amin,once again. TO ALL SPM 08'S CANDIDATES,BEST OF LUCK!

résumé

2009-02-26T21:34:00.000+08:00

Dear Sir/Madam/Dato'/Datin/Tuan/Puan, MY RESUME As mentioned above,I would like to list out a few details about me which I think will really put me in a very qualified position for this job.Based on all the job experiences I've got,I'll certainly fit in this position perfectly and you'll have no doubt to employ me.I'll guarantee you my 100% commitment. QUALIFICATIONS I will list out all the jobs I had done during the holidays,waiting for the SPM results. First of all,I had became a great maid at home.I can do dish-washing,cleaning house,tidying bedrooms,cooking and some others.I'd received many compliments from my parents,my family and some guests.Not to brag.And I'm sure they will give great recommendation on me. Next,I also worked as a Personal Assistant for a lecturer(actually my mother).For now,I was only given with one task,but pretty much more later. Besides that,I'd became a teacher.My little brother and little sister would have their mid-term exam this coming week.So we'll see how they perform after my teachings. Too shorten my list,I'd also worked as seller,businessman,house telephone operator,office boy,waiter,and many many more. I'd participated two courses,which was IT Course in UIAM.And also awarded as "The Best Powerpoint Presentation".Once again,not to brag.Next,I went to a t-shirt printing course.So,I can assure you my great skills in both courses.Just to add,I also worked with my partner to start up a t-shirt printing business.We even made a web page for the business. Based on all the qualifications I had listed above,I hope you can consider me for the job.What I really need now is actually,a REAL JOB.Thank you.

Comments 4 Header

2009-02-23T12:31:00.000+08:00

Just trying to design headers.So do leave some comments for improvement..TQ

EST celebration..

2009-02-20T16:56:00.000+08:00

School's life have passed for almost 3 months now for me.And the results is going to be out in just no time.So do beware all SPM 2008's candidates.Its about time to start praying more for the best.For those who haven't started yet,erm..no comments. Anyway,leave the results matter away for a while.It kept and always would keep me nervous and restless.So,one way to forget it,is to remember other things right? Berjalan di kawasan perumahan USJ5 pada waktu malam memang menenangkan.Angin yang bertiup sepoi menyentuh kulit,menambahkan lagi suasana bandar yang aman dan sentosa.Sudah lama aku hidup di Subang Jaya,tetapi sehingga ke hari ini,barulah aku dapat merasai pengalaman ini.Kebebasan menjadi milikku. "Amir,kita nak buat apa malam ni?Apa plan kita?",aku memecahkan kesunyian ketika itu. "Entah.Aku follow je.Semua orang keluar,aku pun nak keluar.Takkan duduk kat asrama sorang kot",jawab Amirrudin selambe."Pejal,kenapa ikut?" "Aku ikut kau",Faizal menjawab. "Kau nak join diorang main futsal ke,Amir?Aku ingat nak tengok wayang je.Cerita Twilight baru keluar hari ni". "Aku tak tahu lagi.Tengok wayang je kot." Setelah sekian lama berjalan,akhirnya kami tiba ke destinasi kami.SUMMIT.Terpapar jelas tulisan tersebut pada bangunan di hadapan kami.Kami terus menuju ke tingkat atas dan pergi ke bahagian wayang,menempah tiket.Memandangkan wayang bermula lewat lagi,kami menunaikan solat Isya' terlebih dahulu.Sebelum berhibur,pastikan kita telah menunaikan tanggungjawab kita kepada Tuhan. Dipendekkan cerita,setelah tamat menonton wayang,jam di telefon telahpun menunjukkan 12 tengah malam.Kalau kami pulang ketika ini,kami akan ditahan pak guard,kerana selepas pukul 12,tiada pelajar dibenarkan keluar masuk kawasan perumahan tersebut.Jikalau kami lepas kawalan tersebut sekalipun,masih ada suatu halangan perlu ditempuh.Jaga sekolah.Selepas berdiskusi,kami sepakat,jangan balik lagi.Aku mencadangkan untuk pergi ke U-One,tempat kawan-kawan lain bermain futsal.Tempahan untuk court futsal tersebut bermula pada pukul 12 malam.Memang tepat pada masanya,kami tiba di kawasan itu.Mujurlah aku membawa sepasang seluar sukan.Bolehlah aku turut serta bermain futsal.Aku pun,dengan selambe,tanpa memakai kasut,turut main bersama.Tetapi akibatnya,aku terseliuh kaki.Lantaran,aku terus berhenti bermain,dan hanya menjadi penonton yang setia. Sesudah tamat sesi futsal,pengembaraan malam kami diteruskan lagi di restoran mamak berhampiran.Seramai lebih kurang 8 orang ketika itu.Masing-masing mengisi perut yang telah lapar dan dahaga.Teh tarik,roti canai,roti planta,maggi goreng,mee kari dan macam-macam lagi,semuanya bergantung pada selera masing-masing.Kami berborak dengan rancak,membincangkan isu-isu terkini.I think so.Biarpun jarum jam telahpun menunjukkan pukul 2 pagi.Sejam kemudian,barulah selesai.Perut sudah kenyang,maka secara otomatiknya mata semakin kuyu dan layu.Rasa mengantuk mula menyelubungi. Dalam kegelapan malam,kami terus menuju ke masjid.Nama masjid tersebut dirahsiakan demi menjaga nama.Setibanya di masjid,ku hanya mampu mencari suatu ruang untuk melabuhkan badan yang kepenatan ini.Terus baring di satu sudut masjid,dan melelapkan mata.Jam menunjukkan pukul 3 pagi.Ahh..Enak sungguh tidur. Azan Subuh berkumandang.Dalam keadaan mamai,aku mengambil wudhu' dan menunaikan solat berjamaah.Kawan-kawanku yang lain juga sepertiku.Terlampau penat.Malahan,ada di antara mereka yang tidak tidur malam tersebut kerana sambung berborak.Selesai solat,kami menuju ke sekolah sejuta kenangan kami.Bayangan katil sering muncul-muncul dalam minda.Dan aku tahu,perkara pertama yang akan kami lakukan setibanya di asrama ialah TIDUR,TIDUR dan TIDUR.. An OUTING day..xpe,skali skala je..kngn terakhir di SAMBEST an(bukan nama sebenar).

2 days,2 calls

2009-02-18T15:35:00.000+08:00

Last Monday,my bro had just flew up up an away to Australia..and in just within 2 days,we got 2 calls from him??Does he really misses us that bad?? Naah..Going overseas with a bunch of his friends,I don't think he'll miss us that soon.It's just that something that seems like not a big problem,but actually it is.So he forgot to asked our parents earlier. What's the question?? How can we know,which food is halal and which one is not?? From ingredients,we maybe can tell.Eventhough there's no HALAL print by JAKIM,of course.But what if we buy food from restaurants??For example,burger.Well,not the burger he's worried about,but the mayonnaise.So my mother told him,"First of all,don't take meats.Eat fish.And about the mayo,that one,we can only tawakkal".Mayo is made from egg,from what I know.But not sure,other ingredients that are also put in.So,my mother continued,"So just pour chillie sauce on it,and please enjoy your meal.Thank you.Others,leave it to Allah.And remember not to eat outside food to often.Try to cook.Who knows,you might make a great cook".Naah,my mother didn't said that.That was me. Banyak rupanya perkara yang perlu kita bersedia sebelum belajar di rantau orang.Kelihatan melalui pengalaman abang-abang senior sekolah,begitu mudah sekali.Tetapi hakikatnya,Allah sahaja yang tahu.Urusan sebelum berangkat merumitkan.Tak pasti sama ada ia hanya MARA(bukan nama sebenar) ataupun semua jenis tawaran biasiswa,tetapi pengurusan mereka agak teruk.Mungkin mereka berfikiran bahawa mereka bebas melakukan apa sahaja kerana mereka yang memberi biasiswa,maka segalanya atas arahan mereka juga.Bukan prosedur yang menjadi masalah,tetapi cara bekerja mereka.Walaupun saya belum bekerja,tetapi ia tidak memerlukan seorang dewasa yang matang untuk menilai betapa teruk cara pengurusan mereka.Malahan,borang yang mereka gunakan untuk diedar kepada penerima biasiswa,entah sejak tahun bila mereka tidak ubah.Terlalu banyak kesalahan pada borang tersebut.Suatu persoalan yang timbul,kerja apakah yang mereka lakukan di pejabat MARA?(masih bukan nama sebenar).Namun begitu,di sebalik hakikat ini,tersirat suatu pengalaman dan pengajaran.Beginilah keadaan di luar sana.Ambillah pengajaran untuk tidak mengikuti jejak langkah mereka.Dan majukanlah bangsa untuk negara dan agama.Tahukah anda bahawa bangsa Melayu merupakan bangsa yang paling ramai yang menganut agama Islam?Iklan jap. Selain itu,sebelum kita belajar di luar negara,kita perlu bersedia dari sudut mental dan fizikal.Di masa itulah,kita mula belajar berdikari.Kita mula mengenali hidup sebenar orang bujang.Mula mengenal apa hitam putih kehidupan dan belajar menempuh ranjau kehidupan sendirian.Dan di masa itulah,kita boleh mengenal hati budi kawan kita.Yang mana boleh dibawa hingga ke mati,yang mana boleh membawa mati.haha.Kawanlah satu-satunya keluarga yang ada ketika itu.Pilihlah yang terbaik,yang memberi kebaikan,yang menjadikan kita terbaik,dan yang membaiki kita. A friend in need is a friend indeed.So there's another story about my bro and his friends.Before they went to Australia,of course they have to manage and find a place to live there first.So,they've met an agent to handle it.After discussion,the agent said that normally,a room have two beds.So far,he could find a two bedroom house,which means a total of four people only can live in there.And int the overseas,they're strict.When they say four,they mean four.Not more.But their total was five people.So they continued discussing.After a long while,they still couldn't achieve a final decision yet.But it' already late in the evening.My bro had to run home early as we've got an occasion at home.So,he told his friends to keep updating him for any decision they've made and he ran off home. After few days,he tried to ask one of his friends whether they had made a decision or not.Then,suddenly he got to knew that his friends had already registered their names for the 4 people house,without telling him earlier.And he wasn't included among the four names.You see now?Now you yourself can judge.Is that what you call friends??

MUSIXX

2009-02-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

Music.. What would you write,if you were given this topic,for your SPM English 1119 paper?Or someone asked you what's music in your own words?? For me,music is some kind of art.Some kind of arrangement of beautiful sounds. Well,to talk about music is so general.So,I would rather talk about songs. Just to share,some songs had brought quite a huge memory along with it.Well,for me it did. When I hear the song KENANGAN TERINDAH,it brought me to my 9th grade's story(or Form 3 actually).That year was a very joyful year.A lot happened that year.Too much to story.Some were great stories,some were bad ones.Yet,in the end,I was pretty sure I loved it.The song became famous during the end of the year 2006. That moment was even more interesting when we had just finished the PMR examination.We were as free as a bird.So we can fly without wings.We thought it was supposed to be that way actually.Everytime the song was played on the radio,we would turn the radio volume so loud and sing it together.So much like depressed people,releasing their tense.Dancing along like monkeys .We enjoyed ourselves so much.Can't imagine?Well,it sure is as disaster as it sounds. (Hiperbola)..lol

s0me0ne wh0's n0 0ne..

2009-02-17T08:42:00.000+08:00

I was laughing alone,looking at the pictures in my long lost albums.The little boy who I used to be,was so funny,clumsy,yet very energetic and enthusiastic.Or might be quite over-energetic that I'd always hit anyone for no reason.Pretty sure that I learnt the bad influences from the television programmes I used to watch,especially Power Rangers. "This picture had such a high sentimental value,"I mumbled alone."The most memorable,unforgettable memory I had got till now.At least for now,"I thought.It was the picture of us one family in the cold,freezing snow.Actually,I don't really remember this moment.It was taken when I was 4 years old.But it would always be my best memory. 13 tahun dahulu.. Berada di England pada usia semuda begini,merupakan suatu kenangan yang agak membanggakan bagiku.Seawal usia 3 tahun,aku dibawa ke rantauan orang.Memang menjadi impian ramai orang untuk pergi merantau di negeri lain,dan alhamdulillah aku berpeluang merasai pengalaman terindah ini. Di sebalik kegembiraan ini,yang tidak pernah aku ketahui sehinggalah ke hari ini,kesusahan dan kepayahan yang terpaksa ditanggung kedua ibu bapaku untuk menjaga kami 6 adik-beradik.Kegigihan mereka untuk mencari ilmu memang mengagumkan.Biarpun dengan hanya berbekalkan seciput biasiswa yang mereka terima,ibu ayahku mampu menyara kehidupan kami anak-beranak.Malahan,tanpa disangka,mereka tetap mengirimkan sebahagian wang itu kepada kedua ibu bapa mereka di Malaysia. Kehidupan kami sekeluarga di sana tidak pernah dalam kekurangan,apatah lagi kehidupan bermewah-mewahan.Hanya kesederhanaan menjadi kecapan.Rumah teres yang kami diami,sudah amat menyelesakan.Cukup semua kelengkapan yang kami perlukan.Pendidikan kami adik-beradik tidak perlu sekali-kali dirisaukan kerana sudah menjadi tanggungan kerajaan mereka.Fully-supported. RENDELL PRIMARY SCHOOL My old school.I was just 4 years old when I first step into this school.The kindergarten,which from what I can remember,was very enjoying.As we've always watch in most of the English movies,in kindergarten,after tired of very much learning,we were given milk,we were told with bedtime stories,and then we get to sleep.Quite interesting isn't it?Not sure whether in Malaysia do just the same,but I do think the education and the way it was taught there,is much much better.But its just an opinion of mine.No offense.lol 2 years after,I'd started my first grade.6 years old,already in the first grade?Yup.That's right.In England,they started education early.And I can still,until now,remember the name,and even the face of my class teacher.Mr Hahn.And he was surely a great teacher,that he could made me remember him for quite a decade now.Never gave us any detention,nor scolded us,his students.But we would everytime follow and respect his words.Every order.Great isn't he?

..part 7

2009-02-17T08:40:00.000+08:00

PART VII ''Banna, ana tak tahan bila selalu dipujuk Fika. Ana kasihan kat dia. Ana rasa nak kahwin dengan dia,'' Umar meluahkan kepada Banna ketika menziarahi Banna di biliknya. ''Umar, ana tengok nta tak pernah nak berkongsi dengan mas'ul kita tentang masalah nta ni tiapkali diadakan smart group. Kejap lagi Dr Azmin datang. Masalah nta ni rumit. Nta perlu ada syuur perkongsian dengan mas'ul kita. Insyaallah dia boleh bantu,''. Smart group minggu ini diadakan di bilik Banna. Selang beberapa minit mereka asyik berbual, Dr Azmin pun datang. Mereka bersalam berpelukan. Tidak lama kemudian Hanif, Hizbi, Syamil dan Faizi turut menyusul. Kali ini, Umar berkongsi masalahnya dengan sahabat-sahabatnya dalam smart group. Setelah mendengar luahan Umar, masing-masing tampil memberikan hujah bernas untuk menolong Umar menyelesaikan masalahnya. Umar terharu dengan pandangan-pandangan ikhlas sahabat-sahabatnya. ''Umar, kita kena sedar matlamat kita yang nak dicapai. Perjalanan kita masih terlalu jauh dan berliku. Untuk mencapai matlamat mardhotillah yang kita idam-idamkan, kita perlukan teman yang solehah dalam membina baitul da'wah. Generasi yang nak dilahirkan adalah generasi yang boleh mewarisi da'wah kita ini,'' Syamil berhujah matang. ''Kenapa nak cari orang luar sedangkan sahibah kita ramai yang tak kahwin lagi?'' Faizi menduga. ''Sebenarnya, ana dah cubatackle sorang sahibah, tapi dia langsung tak layan. Ana tahu ana tak layak untuk sahibah tu. Dia terlalu baik untuk ana. Ana ni siapa, banyak dosa! Ana betul-betul serik nak tackle sahibah lagi. Mereka semua wanita mulia,'' wajah Asiah Yusro bermain di minda Umar. ''Nta terlalu cepat membuat kesimpulan daripada pengalaman yang nta lalui. Mungkin cara nta tak berapa kena membuatkan sahibah tu belum terbuka lagi untuk menerima nta saat tu. Nta patut cubalagi dengan perantaraan mas'ul kita atau ibubapa. Mungkin cara tu lebih syaro' dan boleh diterima olehnya,'' Banna menasihatkan. ''Ye, kita kena jaga syaro'. Lelaki tak boleh dekati perempuan dan perempuan tak boleh dekati lelaki terlalu rapat walaupun dah bertunang sekalipun. Hanya perkahwinan yang menghalalkan semua tu.'' Faizi menyokong. Umar terdiam seketika. ''Ana sedar. Itulah dosa yang ana buat dengan Fika. Semuanya setelah ana putus asa tackle sahibah tu. Kalaulah ana masih di Sekolah Taman Islam, tentu ana tak jadi macam ni,'' sesalan Umar tidak sirna. ''Umar, kat sini baru kita boleh nampak kualiti sebenar diri kita. Kita harus sedar bahawa kita takkan selamanya berada dalam suasana seperti di Taman Islam. Di sinilah kita perlu berperanan untuk mengubah apa jua suasana yang kita lalui dan menjadikannya sebagai suasana mendidik, suasana tarbiyyah. Kita tak nak larut dengan suasana, seterusnya menjadi sembelihan kepada sistem,'' Syamil tak lupa memainkan peranannya. ''Ana rasa nta tak boleh go on dengan Fika walaupun dia kata dia nak berubah. Nta ibarat permata yang gemilang untuk Islam. Nta kena cari sahibah,'' Hizbi mengemukakan pendapat peribadinya. ''Apa pendapat Dr.?'' Hizbi bertanya pendapat Dr. Azmin yang cuma diam berfikir. Mas'ul sudah tentu banyak pengalaman. ''Ana malu nak menyuruh nta cari sahibah kerana ana sebagai mas'ul pun cari orang luar dulu. Tapi Alhamdulillah, dia dah mula ada kesedaran tarbiyyah dan da'wah. Tambah-tambah lagi bila ana kahwin lagi satu dengan seorang sahibah. Banyak dia dapat manfaat daripada isteri kedua ana. Alhamdulillah mereka boleh hidup rukun damai, sama-sama berusaha mencetak pewaris da'wah daripada zuriat kami,'' mas'ul mereka meluahkan. Mereka semua memandang tepat anak mata Dr Azmin yang jernih berkaca. ''Walaubagaimanapun, ana sangat-sangat bersetuju dengan saranan untuk mencari sahibah sebagai sayap kiri perjuangan. Ana dah lalui, kahwin dengan orang luar dan sahibah ni banyak bezanya. Bayangkan wanita yang tak lalui tarbiyyah dan kurang persiapan Islam menyebabkan beban da'wah kita lebih berat dalam baitul da'wah. Tarbiyyah untuk zuriat kita pun akan turut tergugat. Siapa lagi kalau bukan kita yang terpaksa pikul semua tu?'' Dr Azmin berkongsi pengalaman berharga. ''Sekarang ni pun, ada beberapa orang sohibah kita yang masih tak kahwin. Siapa lagi yang nak selamatkan mereka daripada terlepas ke tangan orang yang tak faham tarbiyyah dan da'wah kalau bukan kamu semua?'' Masing-masing terdiam. THE END - TAMAT - KHALAS..

..part 6

2009-02-17T08:39:00.000+08:00

PART VI ''Keluarga Hanif merisik nti? Alhamdulillah? Bertuah nti kerana akan dapat sahabat kita nanti. Ana teringatkan kak Safar, kak Aisyah, kak Husna, kak Akmal dan kak Farah. Mereka semua sanggup tak kahwin lagi semata-mata menanti pinangan sahabat-sahabat kita. Bukan mereka tak laku, tapi mereka nak bersama orang yang boleh membawa mereka terus istiqomah di atas jalan tarbiyyah dan dakwah,'' Asiah Yusro tumpang gembira dengan berita yang terpancul dari mulut Maziah namun berita itu membawanya terkenang kepada beberapa orang sahibah sefikrah yang masih belum berumah-tangga. ''Ana pun ada mendengar tentang kak Akmal yang dipaksa kahwin oleh keluarganya dengan seorang lelaki. Lelaki tu bukan dalam kalangan sahabat kita dan kurang pula kefahamannya tentang tarbiyyah dan da'wah,'' tambah Maziah. ''Kasihan kak Akmal. Dia mengalami konflik dengan keluarganya sekarang ni,. Sama-samalah kita doakan dia, Apa yang ana kesalkan,tak de sorangpun sahabat yang tampil berkorban untuk selamatkan kak Akmal sedangkan isu ni dan lama dibangkitkan,'' Asiah Yusro bersuara kesal. ''Masakan tidak, ramai sahabat nak cari orang luar. Selalunya, dalam bab a'mal Islami yang lain kita boleh berpadu kefahaman dan tindakan tapi dalam bab memilih jodoh, ramai sahabat yang nak cari sendiri. Mereka tak nak lagi ambil Islam secara menyeluruh. Yang cantik je menjadi pilihan, yang kurang cantik dipinggirkan,'' Maziah mencebik bibir. Lipatan tudungnya dibetulkan. ''Betul. Sepatutnya mereka mengambil pengajaran daripada hadith yang menyuruh mereka lebih memandang agama seseorang gadis melebihi kecantikan, harta atau keturunannya. Semua itu akan pudar dan hilang kecuali iman si gadis,'' Asiah Yusro menyokong kata-kata Maziah. '' Tapi, tak semua sahabat begitu?nak tak nak, kita kena baik sangka juga dengan sahabat-sahabat kita. Tengok, ramai yang berjaya bina baitul da'wah mereka. Kita patut bersyukur kerana kita pun antara orang yang dilahirkan daripada baitul da'wah. Malah, berpeluang pula menjadi bekas pelajar di Sekolah Taman Islam bersama-sama kebanyakan generasi semaian baitul da'wah,'' Asiah Yusro berbaik sangka. ''Tengoklah juga Hanif, dia tetap memilih sahibah?'' Asiah Yusra mengusik Maziah yang kelihatan terdiam seketika. ''Astargfirullah! Lagho ana nanti?'' Maziah membulatkan mata. ''Maaf, ana gurau je..'' Asiah Yusro tersenyum manis. Maziah geram diusik. Dia berfikir sesuatu, ''Yusro, nti pun tentu menjadi rebutan sahabat,'' Maziah pula yang mengusik. ''Ish, tak de lah. Siapalah ana?.'' Asiah Yusro merendah diri. ''Alah, bukan ana tak tahu, nti pernah dicuba sahabat tapi nti menolaknya,'' Tercengang Asiah Yusro mendengar kata-kata itu. (Ya, Umar Al-Mujahid pernah merisikku. Tapi, aku tak pernah menolak. Aku cuma diam pada risikannya. Jauh di sudut hati, aku harap dia faham bahawa diam itu tanda setuju) ''Mana nti tahu?'' dia terkejut bila rahsianya terbongkar. ''Umi nti kankawan baik umi ana. Umi nti yang cerita?. Baru-baru ni pun, mas'ulah kita, Dr. Sal ada minta biodata dan gambar nti, kan?! Dah tentu ada sahabat yang berkenan kat nti tu,''Maziah tertawa kecil melihat telatah Asiah Yusro yang mula tertunduk malu. Di ingatan Asiah Yusro, terimbas kembali bagaimana Umar Al-Mujahid pernah beberapa kali menghantar mesej untuk merisik dirinya sebaik sahaja mereka dipertemukan kembali dalam universiti yang sama. Tetapi, mesej Umar terbengkalai tanpa apa-apa jawapan. Bukan Asiah Yusro tak sukakan Umar Al-Mujahid, namun dia terlalu terkejut dengan tindakan berani Umar. Justeru, dia mengabaikan mesej-mesej Umar begitu sahaja agar perasaan terkejutnya kembali tenang. Dia terkejut kerana dirisik oleh sahabat yang paling dikaguminya di Sekolah Taman Islam. Malah, dia sering melarikan diri daripada bertembung dengan Umar kerana terlampau malu. Hatinya resah. Memang, Asiah Yusro tak dapat lagi menipu diru. Dia juga turut merasakan bahawa hatinya menaruh harapan terhadap Umar. Namun, hari-hari yang pantas berlalu, dia terus disibukkan dengan akademik, Kelab Penulisan, program-program tarbiyyah dan da'wah daripada berfikir soal itu. Dia langsung tidak mengambil tahu perkembangan Umar di universiti. Asiah Yusro terlampau menjaga hatinya agar tidak rosak, sakit dan mati kerana diracuni nama seorang lelaki. Baginya, cinta adalah ujian yang paling berat dan besar fitnahnya di alam remaja. Dia bermujahadah untuk tidak terjebak ke dalam sumur buta itu. (Entah bagaimana keadaan Umar sekarang?masihkah dia setia menantiku? Ahh, ku tepis rindu ini! Aku yakin, dialah orang yang meminta biodataku dari Dr. Sal sebab tu aku tak kantanya Dr.Sal tentang hal ni. Moga, Allah memudahkanku untuk membina baitul da'wah idaman bersamanya?) Asiah Yusro bermonolog sendiri. Memang sesekali hatinya tidak dapat mengelak daripada berfikir tentang Umar. Maziah menyergahnya. ''Tiba-tiba berkhayal, ye?!Fikirkan masa depan? Jangan bimbang, nti wanita solehah, tentu mendapat suami yang soleh juga. Moga-moga di kalangan sahabat,'' Maziah mengusik. Dia pula mengimbas sesuatu. Ibunya berjumpa Dr. Sal dan ibu Asiah Yusro seminggu yang lepas. Ibu-ibu mereka berkawan baik dengan Dr. Sal sejak mereka sama-sama menuntut di universiti yang sama. Tujuan mereka adalah merisik Asiah Yusro untuk abangnya, Hassan Al-Banna. Namun, ianya diluar pengetahuan Asiah Yusro.Maziah sudah lama menduga abangnya menaruh hati terhadap teman baiknya sebelum abangnya itu berani menyuarakan hasrat hati kepada ibu. Ibu merekalah yang telah meminta gambar dan biodata Asiah Yusro daripada mas'ulah Asiah Yusro iaitu Dr Sal. "Bang Umar, baliklah pada Fika. Fika rindu abang Umar yang Fika kenali dulu,'' Fika terus memujuk rayu. Handset Umar sentiasa berirama dengan mesej dan panggilan daripada gadis itu. ''Fika, kita dah tak de apa-apa lagi. Berapa kali orang nak cakap,'' ''Abang, sampai hati abang! Takkan semudah ni abang nak tinggalkan Fika? Abang tak kasihankan Fika? Apa salah Fika pada abang?'' terdengar suara tangisan Fika. Hati Umar terusik. ''Abang, Fika selalu jadi mangsa cinta lelaki. Selepas Fika dah menaruh harapan tinggi, senang-senang je lelaki nak tinggalkan Fika. Fika ingat Fika dah jumpa cinta sejati selepas menemui abang, tapi rupanya Fika silap. Abang pun sama macam jantan lain. Abang langsung tak kasihankan Fika?'' Umar terus diracuni pujuk rayu dan tangisan Nur Syafika. Berbisa sungguh tangisan seorang wanita di hati seorang lelaki. ''Fika, abang pun masih sayangkan Fika. Tapi, abang tak boleh terima bila perhubungan kita ni atas jalan yang salah, jalan yang Allah tak redhai. Abang mengakui, abang lemah menghadapi godaan Fika. Abang tak nak peristiwa tempoh hari berulang lagi. Fika harus faham, jika Fika sayangkan perhubungan ni, Fika kembalilah mencari Allah. Bila hati kita sama-sama mencari Allah, barulah kita masih ada peluang untuk hidup bersama,'' ''Abang, bimbinglah Fika,''terus merayu. ''Apa yang mampu abang lakukan. Pergaulan kita terbatas kerana kita adalah mahram. Kalau Fika betul-betul hajatkan bimbingan, Fika carilah seorang pelajar bernama Asiah Yusro. Abang yakin dia boleh bimbing Fika. Kalau tak silap abang, dia selalu hadiri kuliyah Tazkiyatul Nafs oleh Dr. Azmin setiap Ahad malam di department abang,''

..part 5

2009-02-17T08:38:00.000+08:00

PART V Fika tidak putus-putus mengukir senyuman. Wajah kacak Umar Al-Mujahid benar-benar membuatkan dia berasa bangga dapat berjalan di sisinya. Matanya sentiasa menjeling manja menatap wajah pemuda itu. Dia cubamemasukkan jejari halusnya di celah jejari Umar namun ditepis oleh Umar. Suasana di tepi tasik PWTC begitu romantis dirasakan. ''Kita tak boleh bersentuhan lagi, berdosa!'' iman di dada Umar bersuara. Fika mencebikkan bibir. ''Alah, pegang tangan je, bukan buat apa-apa yang tak senonoh. Fika kansayang abang. Nanti, Fika jadi milik abang juga. Apa salahnya Fika nak bermanja sikit dengan abang,''Fika bersuara manja. Gerak badanya melentok ke sana-sini kerana cubamenggoda Umar. Umar terdiam. Gurlp!! Tersirap darah mudanya.Perlahan-lahan, tangannya dibiarkan berada dalam genggaman Fika. Fika puas kerana tindakannya tidak dihalang lagi. Direbahkan pula kepalanya ke bahu Umar. ''Abang Umar sayang, Fika nak tunjuk sesuatu pada abang, tapi Fika takut abang marah Fika,'' ''Tunjuk apa?'' ''Abang kena janji takkan marah?'' ''Kenapa abang nak marah pulak?'' ''Janjilah dulu sayang?'' ''Okey,abang janji takkan marah Fika,'' Fika tersenyum. Dia membuka selendangnya di hadapan Umar. Kacamata hitam yang dipakai turut dipecat seketika. Umar kelu tak terkata apa-apa. ''Fika nak tunjuk rambut Fika, baru buat teknik rebonding. Lurus tak rambut Fika? Abang suka tak?'' Gurlp! ''Fika, pakai balik tudung tu!'' arah Umar. ''Kenapa? Abang tak suka rambut Fika ke?'' Fika bersuara merajuk. ''Err, suka. Tapi, perempuan tak boleh tunjuk rambut dia pada lelaki. Berdosa!'' ''Alah, Fika tunjuk pun pada bakal suami Fika juga. Inilah tanda sayang Fika pada abang. Fika memang terlalu sayang kat abang. Salah ke Fika nak bahagiakan abang? Abang tu sepatutnya hargai pengorbanan Fika. Abang ingat, buat teknik rebonding ni murah ke? Fika bazirkan duit Fika untuk abang. Fika nak kelihatan cantik pun semata-mata untuk abang. Ini bukti cinta Fika, bang! Tulus cinta Fika pada abang?'' Umar makin lemas dihambur kata-kata manis Fika.Matanya dikaburi warna-warni pelangi yang indah dalam dunia cinta ciptaan syaitan. Imannya direntap-rentap dan ditusuk-tusuk oleh kata-kata Fika. Tangannya mula diangkat berani memeluk bahu Fika. Matanya dipejamkan agar mindanya boleh terbang menyahut khayalan dunia cinta Nur Syafika. ''Sejauh mana pun kita bersembunyi, Allah tetap nampak kita,''ungkapan kata-kata Dr. Azmin tiba-tiba terngiang-ngiang di minda Umar. Imannya berbisik lagi, masih tidak mahu tewas melawan bisikan syaitan. Serentak dengan itu, Umar membuka matanya, terbit rasa berdosa. Dia memandang sekeliling dan mula terperasan bahawa ada sekumpulan pemuda sedang berkumpul di tepi tasik dengan posisi yang sangat hampir dengan posisinya. Mereka sedang rancak berbincang sesuatu. Umar menjeling sekilas pandang. ''Gurlp! Diorang?'' Dada Umar berombak kencang tatkala melihat Banna, Hanif, Hizbi, Syamil, Faizi dan Dr Azmin sedang mengadakan smart group di situ. Umar menolak Fika dari pelukannya. Dia mencapai selendang Fika lalu memakainya. Kacamata hitam milik Fika turut dipakainya. Fika hairan melihat tindakan Umar disusuli ketawa manja. Dia menyangka Umar sedang berlawak untuknya. ''Kenapa abang pakai selendang Fika? Luculah abang ni!'' Fika mencubit paha Umar. ''Fika, apa yang kita buat ni berdosa!'' Umar bersuara tegas menyebabkan Fika mengkeriukkan dahinya. Umar semakin diburu rasa bersalah tatkala melihat sahabat-sahabatnya. (Ya Allah, aku harap mereka tak nampak aku!) hati Umar menaruh harapan. Dia tidak sedar bahawa sahabat-sahabatnya sudah sekian lama memerhati gelagat mereka berdua. ''Tapi?ini bukti cinta kita, bang! Fika bahagia dalam pelukan abang. Fika sayang abang,'' ''Mampuslah dengan cinta! Nak kena tangkap basah?'' Umar tiba-tiba meradang. Jiwanya takut sekali. ''Jom balik!'' Umar mengajak pulang. ''Abang, Fika tak fahamlah! Kenapa tiba-tiba nak ajak balik? Fika belum puas lagi bersama abang!''wajah Fika penuh keliru. ''Fika ada sakitkan hati abang ke? Kalau ada, tegurlah Fika, jangan buat Fika tertanya-tanya macam ni. Fika tak nak kehilangan abang sebagaimana Fathil tinggalkan Fika. Fika sayang abang!'' ''Abang nak balik?'' Umar berdiri lalu berjalan meninggalkan Fika. ''Abang Umar, pulangkan tudung Fika!'' Fika menjerit kuat membuatkan semua sahabat-sahabat Umar berpaling ke arah Umar. Umar turut terhenti langkahnya dan memandang sahabat-sahabatnya. Mata mereka bertembung. Hanif tiba-tiba tergelak kuat melihat keadaan Umar yang cubamenyembunyikan dirinya dengan memakai selendang perempuan. Dr Azmin menyiku Hanif. Hanif tunduk terdiam. Umar membuka selendang yang dipakainya. Dicampak ke lantai. Air mata lelakinya bergenang. Ditahan sekuat hati agar tidak tumpah. Sahabat-sahabatnya datang menghampiri. Fika berdebar melihat lelaki-lelaki itu lalu diambil selendangnya sambil cepat-cepat berlalu pergi. (Pegawai pencegah maksiat ke ni? Baik aku lari. Padan muka kau, Umar. Kau hadapilah seorang diri!) ''Antum semua dah nampak. Ana jahat!!!'' Umar meluahkan. Suaranya sebak. ''Umar, kalau kami tak nampak pun, Allah tetap nampak! Dia berada dimana sahaja!'' Dr. Azmin bersuara. ''Umar, nta harapan agama, harapan ummah! Kembalilah mencari hidayah Allah,'' Dr. Azmin bersuara lagi. ''Ana rasa berdosa.Kotor! Tak layak untuk menerima hidayah Allah!'' luah Umar penuh kesalan. ''Kita tak layak atau tak nak? Itulah hebatnya kita ada Allah dalam hidup kita. Sejahat mana pun kita, Dia tetap sayangkan kita. Kembalilah Umar?.kembali bersama kami,'' Banna memujuk. ''Ya, Umar. Nta tetap sahabat kami sampai bila-bila. Jangan sia-siakan potensi diri nta. Kami masih menaruh harapan tinggi pada nta,'' lembut kata-kata Hizbi. ''Umar, di mana hilangnya Umar Al-Khattab abad ke-21 yang bertunas di Taman Islam dulu?'' Banna mengingatkan saat kegemilangan Umar, Ketua Pengawas Sekolah Taman Islam yang berwibawa. Syamil dan Faizi turut memberikan kata-kata perangsang untuk menaikkan semangat Umar agar kembali di atas jalan da'wah dan tarbiyyah. ''Tadi, nak luruh jantung ana bila antum nampak maksiat yang ana buat. Tak tahu macam mana nak berhadapan dengan Allah bila Allah nampakkkan semula maksiat tu di padangmahsyar nanti,'' Umar betul-betul menyesal. ''Umar, bertaubatlah. Allah Maha Pengampun. Manusia memang sentiasa ada kederhakaannya pada Allah, sebab tu lah kita hajat pada tarbiyyah untuk memelihara diri kita. Kita tak boleh hidup sorang-sorang di dunia yang banyak perangkapnya ni. Musang akan cepat menyambar kambing yang duduk sorang-sorang,'' Faizi mengatur kata. Umar memeluk Faizi. Seterusnya Dr Azmin, Syamil,Banna, Hanif dan Hizbi turut dirangkul erat. Jiwanya sebak. (aku bertuah kerana ada sahabat macam korang semua?Aku bosan dengan perjuangan, tapi aku tak pernah bosan ada kawan macam korang. Aku tahu, roh perjuangan yang aku cubalari darinya itulah yang menjadikan korang sebaik ini?)

..part 4

2009-02-17T08:37:00.000+08:00

PART IV Banna melangkah ke gerai yang berderet-deret tersusun berhampiran dewan besar universiti sempena Mujahidah Week. Dia mencari gerai kepunyaan Kelab Penulisan. Adik kembarnya berniaga di situ. Dari jauh, Banna melihat adiknya Maziah bersama Asiah Yusro, teman baik adiknya sedang sibuk menyusun buku-buku di gerai mereka. (Ish, Asiah Yusro pun ada?! Seganlah?.)hati Banna berbisik. Dia mengakui hatinya resah tiapkali terpandang Asiah Yusro, mawar mujahidah acuan Sekolah Taman Islam yang sangat dihormati kerana ketokohannya dalam tarbiyyah dan da'wah. Lantaran itu, hatinya akan segera beristighfar. Dia tidak mahu jiwanya dibiarkan parah dibaham mazmumah. Banna memberanikan jua kakinya melangkah mendekati gerai Kelab Penulisan. ''Assalamualaikum. Maziah, abang nak jumpa, jap,'' Banna mengajak adiknya beredar sedikit daripada gerai itu. Maziah meminta izin daripada Asiah Yusro. Asiah Yusro mengangguk lembut sambil mengukir senyuman. Sebelum beredar bersama abangnya, Maziah sempat mengambil cebisan-cebisan kertas berwarna biru yang baru dikoyak dari dalam lipatan sebuah buku. ''Kertas apa tu?'' Banna menjeling. ''Tadi, ada sorang classmate Maziah bagi. Geli Maziah membaca ayat-ayat yang ditulis lalu dengan spontan tangan Maziah mengoyaknya. Maaf, tak sempat nak tunjuk kat abang..'' Maziah meyerahkan cebisan-cebisan kertas itu ke tangan abangnya. Banna menyambut lalu membelek-belek. ''Lelaki ke?'' ''Kalau perempuan, Maziah tak kanbuat macam ni, bang?'' ''Hidup remaja memang terlalu mencabar. Dugaan cinta macam ni akan datang silih berganti. Sebab tu lah kita hajat sangat pada tarbiyyah agar kita tak hanyut nanti.,''nasihat seorang abang. ''Abang doakanlah selalu untuk Maziah ye. Hidayah tu milik Allah?Maziah takut hidayah tu hilang dari diri Maziah jika tergoda dengan ujian ni. Allah tak perlukan Maziah tapi Maziah memang terlalu memerlukan hidayah-Nya untuk selamat di dunia dan akhirat. Kalau kita tak jaga hidayah Allah, ia boleh pergi meninggalkan kita, kanbang?!'' (Syukurlah Allah masih memberi kesedaran ini kepada adikku. Wanita yang ditarbiyyah adalah sebaik-baik nikmat di dunia ini) ''Mmm.Sama-samalah kita berdoa?.'' Banna mengangguk setuju. ''Kau tengok tu! Patutlah dia koyak senang-senang je kad yang aku beli mahal-mahal, rupa-rupanya dah ada pak we,'' bentak Fathil yang berada selang beberapa gerai dari kedudukan Maziah dan abangnya. ''A'ah lah Fathil. Eh, eh, dia tunjuk kat pak we dia pulak kad kau tu. Aku rasa, tentu pak we dia tengah hina kau teruk-teruk. Melampau diorang ni, Fathil,'' tambah Joe. ''Dating depan orang ramai pulak tu,'' darah Fathil mendidih. ''Nampak je baik, tapi spesis Fika jugak ni. Yang aku bengang sangat, aku kenal pak we dia tu,''gigi-gigi Fathil dicengkam kuat, bergemerincing. ''Siapa?'' ''Kawan roommate aku. Banna namanya. Ingatkan dia budak waro', tapi sama setan cam aku je. Maziah tu pulak memang sengaja dating depan aku, nak sakitkan hati aku lah tu,'' ''Fathil, kau tengok je awek kau kena kebas depan mata? Kalau aku, aku takkan biarkan budak tu. Kena bagi penangan skit?'' ''Aku ni pantang dicabar, Joe. Aku tengah mendidih ni. Dah lah aku meluat ngan Fika ramai boyfriend, baru nak pikat perempuan baik, begini pulak jadinya. Kalau nak bagi penangan, bukan setakat Banna, Maziah dan Fika pun aku nak ajar sekali,'' ''Aku tahu kalau Fathil yang cakap memang dia buat,'' Joe makin mengapi-apikan kemarahan Fathil. ''Joe,malam ni kau dan Umar ikut aku belasah Banna, nak?'' ''Malam ni? Kenapa lambat sangat?sekarang ni pun dah boleh belasah ngan mulut. Semburlah pedas-pedas skit kat diorang yang tengah berasmara tu,'' Fathil makin terbakar dengan hasutan Joe. ''Maziah, tahu tak ziarah keluarga Hanif pada cuti semester lepas tu ada makna?'' ''Hanif mana ni bang?'' ''Alah, Hanif?kawan abang yang hitam manis tu. Dia tak de rupa sangat tapi agamanya, insyallah.'' ''Oh, yang ada bersama abang ketika kita jumpa hari tu?! Dia dari Sekolah Taman Islam jugak ke, bang?'' Pergaulan yang terbatas di sekolah itu menyebabkan pelajar perempuannya kurang mengenali pelajar lelaki. Begitulah sebaliknya. ''Takk, dia sekolah biasa je. Tapi aktif ikut tarbiyyah kat sini. Dia dalam smart group yang sama dengan abang.,'' ''Maziah ingat?.zaman kecil-kecil dulu, keluarganya selalu ziarah rumah kita. Tapi, bila dah besar macam ni dia jarang ikut keluarganya ziarah. Dia tu nakal masa kecil dulu,kanabang? Maziah cukup tak suka kat dia dulu. Dia selalu ejek Maziah macam-macam,'' ''Alah, masa kecil semua orang nakal. Perempuan biasanya baik sikit lah. Kalau kita tahu kelemahan seseorang, kita kena ingat, no body is perfect. Kita pun ada kelemahan. Membetulkan adalah tanggungjawab kita. Maziah macam mana sekarang ni? Boleh terima ke kalau keluarga Hanif masuk meminang?'' ''Sebenarnya, Maziah dah fikirkan semua ni. Umi dah bagitahu Maziah awal-awal lagi. Ibubapa Hanif betul-betul berharap. Maziah tak kisah siapa pun yang bakal jadi suami Maziah, asalkan fikrahnya jelas dan dia berada di atas jalan tarbiyyah dan da'wah. Maziah tak pernah pandang rupa atau kekayaan, Maziah hanya hajat pada agama dan bimbingannya,'' ''Syukurlah, abang gembira dengan jawapan Maziah?.'' Tiba-tiba?.. ''Ingatkan perempuan pakai tudung labuh tu baik, tapi tak sangka ala-ala setan jugak. Nak dating pun pergi tempat lain lah woiii?''laung Fathil dengan kuat ke arah Banna dan Maziah. Mereka terkejut. Beberapa orang pelajar yang lalu lalang memandang sinis ke arah mereka dengan kata-kata Fathil yang lantang itu. Banna cubamenjelaskan keadaaan. Dia menghampiri Fathil. ''Fathil?dengar sini?'' ''Aku kenal kau. Hipokrit. Berlagak baik tapi sebenarnya setan?.'' ''Fathil?'' Banna cubabersuara lagi. Terhalang. ''Sudahlah?.tak payah nak mengaku baik lagi. Sudah terang lagi bersuluh. Nak buat maksiat pun depan-depan orang. Buat malu nama universiti je,'' Fathil tidak mahu mendengar apa-apa penjelasan daripada Banna selepas memalukan mereka berdua di khalayak ramai. Dia puas lalu meninggalkan mereka terpinga-pinga. Asiah Yusro melihat kejadian itu. Dia bergegas menghampiri Maziah. ''Sabarlah Maziah, Allah tahu nti adik- beradik,'' ''Manusia memang macam tu, bila timbul rasa dendam dan cemburu tak bertempat, dia mula lah nak lakukan perkara tak baik pada orang lain,'' luah Maziah dengan gelagat Fathil, rakan sekelas yang sering mengganggunya saban hari. ''Maziah, pandanglah semua orang dari kacamata dakwah. Kasihan lelaki tadi, mungkin niat dia ikhlas nak mencegah mungkar di depan matanya tapi kurang teliti dengan tindakannya. Lagipun, kedudukan Maziah dan abang Maziah tadi memang boleh menimbulkan prasangka, betul tak ?'' Maziah mengangguk. ''Kita doakanlah agar orang sepertinya akan mengenal tarbiyyah dan da'wah bil hikmah dengan izin Allah,'' Kata-kata Asiah Yusro menenangkan hati Maziah. Dia berzikir memuji Allah. Banna datang menghampiri adiknya. ''Maziah, kita beristighfarlah atas kejadian tadi. Mungkin silap kita juga. Semuanya kerana salah faham,'' Banna mengingatkan adiknya. Maziah tersenyum. Begitu juga Asiah Yusro. ''Insyallah, bang! Err, abang?dia lah yang menghantar kad biru tu. Maziah ada mendengar abang panggil nama dia tadi, abang dah kenal dia, ya?!'' Tanya Maziah. ''Dia roommate Umar Al-Mujahid, bekas ketua pengawas sekolah kita dulu. Abang selalu ziarah biliknya,'' Banna menerangkan. Di Taman Islam, siapa yang tak mengenal Umar Al-Mujahid. ''Oh, ingat tak peristiwa kat bus stop tu? Rasanya, Umar lah yang membonceng motor dia?'' Maziah memandang Asiah Yusro. Asiah Yusro berfikir sesuatu. Hatinya resah mendengar nama Umar Al-Mujahid. (Apa khabar dia sekarang? Masihkah dia seperti dulu? Hebat dengan tarbiyyah dan da'wah?). Tak lama kemudian, Asiah Yusro bersuara, ''Ana pun rasa begitu. Bersyukurlah kalau lelaki tadi sebilik dengan Umar. Mudah-mudahan Umar boleh membimbingnya mengenal tarbiyyah dan da'wah,'' Banna terdiam dengan kata-kata itu. (Alangkah bagusnya kalau begitu. Tapi, aku takut si Fathil pula yang membimbing Umar agar lari dari hidayah Allah. Na'uzubillah. Astargfirullah, sangka tak baik kat orang pulak aku ni. Astargfirullah) Fathil masuk ke bilik dengan nafas kencang berombak di dada. Dipecat baju lalu dihempas kasar ke katil. Sejurus kemudian, dia merebahkan badan. ''Kenapa kau ni, Fathil? Masih gagal tackle Maziah ke?'' tanya Umar yang sejak tadi memerhati. Umar baru sahaja selesai berbalas-balas sms dengan Fika. ''Aku bengang betul lah!'' ''Bengang apa?'' ''Maziah dating depan aku tadi lepas sesuka hati dia je koyak kad yang aku bagi. Siapa tak bengang?'' ''Orang dah ada pak we, cari lain je?.'' ''Huh, tak semudah tu! Ni Fathil?dia belum kenal lagi siapa Fathil!'' ''Kau nak buat apa?'' Umar ingin tahu. ''Aku nak belasah dia malam ni. Kalau kau kawan aku, kau kena ikut aku,'' ''Belasah perempuan?'' (Gila!) bentak hati Umar. ''Bodoh! Belasah pak we dia lah?'' ''Eh, kau biar betul! Takkan sampai nak belasah orang,'' ''Kau memang penakut lah Umar. Benci! Bukannya aku nak belasah betul-betul. Takut-takutkan je. Joe pun ikut sekali, tak penakut macam kau! Kau bayangkanlah, dia sanggup rampas mak we aku dan sengaja ajak dating depan mata aku. Anak jantan mana tak tercabar? '' ''Bila masa kau berjaya jadikan Maziah awek kau? Orang rampas awek kau atau kau yang rampas awek orang?'' Umar tahu Fathil tak pernah berjaya tackle Maziah. '' Kau tahu apa Umar?! Tu lah?asyik gila bersms je. Kau kena ingat, kau dapat Fika pun sebab aku. Apa perasaan kau kalau aku nak berbaik balik ngan Fika dan ajak dia bermadu asmaradepan mata kau?'' Umar akhirnya mengalah. ''Hah, tu dia! Kau sedia Joe, kau masuk dulu,'' Fathil menunding jari tepat ke arah Banna yang baru sahaja keluar dari kolejnya menuju ke kafetaria. Wajah Banna agak samar dalam cahaya neon yang kurang terang. Fathil, Umar dan Joe bersembunyi di sebalik sebatang pokok pinang kota. Tatkala Banna melewati kawasan yang agak gelap itu, Joe menerajang Banna dari belakang sekuat hati. Tenaganya difokus padu kepada kaki. Banna jatuh terpelanting beberapa meter ke tanah. Mukanya tersembam ke batu sehingga hidungnya berdarah. Gigi taringnya hampir tercabut.Umar masuk menyerang dengan menyiku belakang Banna beberapa kali. Banna masih tersemban di situ. Dia menarik kolar baju Banna untuk membuat pukulan seterusnya namun langkahnya mati serta-merta tatkala terpandang wajah lelaki itu. Banna dan Umar saling berpandangan. Tangan kiri Umar masih kemas menggengam kolar baju Banna dan tangan kanannya menggumpal penumbuk. Perlahan-lahan Banna melepaskan gengaman dan meleraikan penumbuknya. Umar menghulurkan tangan, membantu Banna untuk bangun. Banna menyambut dan bangun membersihkan debu-debu tanah di badannya. (Kau Banna? Ah?kasihan kau!) kesal hati Umar. ''Cis, mampuslah korang berdua!'' Fathil meradang melihat drama itu lalu cubamenyerang Umar dan Banna serentak. Umar bertindak pantas mematahkan serangan Fathil dengan menggunakan ilmu taekwando yang dimiliki. Fathil sempat membuka beberapa langkah silat tempang dan membuat tumbukan tepat sebelum serangannya dipatahkan. Joe pula masuk membantu tetapi silatnya juga berjaya dipatahkan oleh Banna walaupun sudah tercedera. Banna gagah dan tegap orangnya. Kalau tidak dipukul curi sebentar tadi, mungkin mereka tak berpeluang mencederakannya. ''Woii!!'' seorang Pak Guard yang kebetulan meronda menjerkah mereka. Cahaya lampu picitnya yang terang meyuluh satu persatu wajah-wajah pelajar di hadapannya. Dia sudah berada terlalu dekat dengan mereka. (Tiada harapan untuk lari) dengus Joe. ''Woii. Korang gaduh ye?'' ''Tak, kami berlatih taekwando!'' Fathil berdalih. ''Berlatih taekwando? Takkan sampai berdarah-darah cam ni?'' Pak Guard menyuluh tepat ke arah Banna. Hidung dan mulutnya berdarah. Gigi taringnya yang longgar akibat tersemban ke batu, kini sudah tercabut kerana terkena penumbuk Joe. ''A'ah. Kami ada perlawanan minggu depan. Terpaksa berlatih kat kolej,'' tambah Joe. ''Jangan nak berdalih. Aku dah masak dengan perangai student. Tak de orang yang berlatih sampai berdarah cam ni,'' Pak Guard masih curiga lantaran melihat darah yang makin membuak-buak keluar dari hidung Banna. Begitu juga mulutnya. ''Betul Pak cik. Saya berdarah sebab tersembam ke batu tadi. Tak sengaja,'' Banna pun terpaksa berbohong untuk meredakan keadaan yang menjadi semakin tegang.Bukan bohong tapi helah. ''Lain kali, kalau nak berlatih pun, pergilah dekat court . Yang korang berlatih dalam gelap tepi batu-batu kerikil ni, saper suruh? Sudah, aku tak nak tengok korang berlatih kat sini lagi. Cari tempat lain!'' Pak Guard meyakini kata-kata Banna lalu minta mereka segera bersurai. ''Kau ingat, kau tunjuk baik, aku boleh maafkan kau?'' api kemarahan Fathil masih menyala-nyala terhadap Banna. Telunjuknya tepat dihala ke arah batang hidung Banna. Ketika itu Pak Guard sudah pun berlalu pergi. ''Woii, Fathil! Kenapa kau tak cakap awal-awal kau nak belasah kawan aku, hah?'' Umar menengking Fathil. Joe sedang mengurut-ngurut lengannya yang sakit dipulas Banna sebentar tadi. ''Kau ingat aku ni bodoh sangat nak bagitahu kau? Mesti kau tolak awal-awal. Aku nak kau nampak sendiri, kawan kau yang tak guna ni lah rampas mak we aku. Pas tu dating depan orang ramai, buat maksiat!'' Umar terdiam. Dia memandang Banna seketika. Dia teringat Banna ada mengatakan bahawa dia ingin berjumpa adik kembarnya ketika akhir pertemuan mereka petang tadi. (Patutlah first time aku tengok Maziah, aku rasa aku pernah nampak dia. Baru aku perasan, wajahnya memang mirip wajah Banna) ''Fathil, awak salah faham..'' Banna bersuara, cubamenjelaskan keadaan. Fathil segera memotong. ''Aku tak nak dengar apa-apa dari orang hipokrit macam kau! Maziah tu mak we aku, kalau aku nampak korang berdua-duaan lagi sekali, aku takkan serik belasah kau,'' ''Bodoh! Memang kau salah faham?'' Umar menengking lagi. Dia tak dapat menahan kemarahannya. Kalau dikutkan hati, mahu sahaja dia meramas-ramas mulut celupar Fathil yang menuduh Banna bukan-bukan. ''Salah faham apa? Aku tengok depan mata kepala aku sendiri?'' Fathil menguatkan kenyataannya. ''Aku pun tengok!'' tambah Joe. ''Kau pun sama bodoh! Buat malu je! Tu adik kembar dia lah, bukan mak we!'' Umar meyakini Banna memang mempunyai adik kembar walaupun tak pernah mengenali kembar Banna sebelum ini. Banna adalah sahabat yang terlalu dipercayainya. Fathil terdiam kaku dengan keterangan itu. Merah padam mukanya. (Aku belasah bakal abang ipar aku sendiri?) Dari jauh Pak Guard tadi melihat mereka masih belum bersurai malah bertikam lidah pula. Dia menghidupkan motorsikalnya untuk meronda ke sanalagi sekali. ''Anggaplah tak de apa-apa yang berlaku. Saya minta maaf. Semuanya kerana salah faham bukan salah sesiapa,'' ujar Banna dengan lembut sambil menghulurkan tangannya. (Uih, makhluk jenis apa yang baik sangat ni?) Malu sendiri Fathil dibuatnya. Dia tidak menyambut salam itu kerana terlalu malu. Dia menumbuk ringan bahu Joe untuk mengajaknya beredar. Pak Guard yang semakin hampir membatalkan niatnya menegur tatkala melihat adegan Banna menghulur tangan, kemudian Fathil dan Joe mula beredar. ''Tadi, berlatih taekwando. Ni berlatih teater pulak ke?'' sempat Pak Guard menyindir sambil berlalu pergi. Umar merenung wajah Banna. ''Banna, cedera nta teruk ke?'' ''Sikit je,'' balas Banna, masih mampu mengukir senyuman. ''Nta tak patut minta maaf dari Fathil. Bukan salah nta pun. Fathil tu yang memandai kata Maziah awek dia. Dia memang macam tu, kalau dah syok kat perempuan, memang dia usahakan jugak sampai dapat,'' ''Lupakanlah?.. Sebenarnya, Maziah tu dah ada orang masuk. Ana harap nta boleh bagitahu Fathil hal ni,'' '' Insyaallah.Ana minta maaf. Ana betul-betul tak tahu mereka nak belasah nta tadi,'' Umar dihantui rasa bersalah apatah lagi melihat sahabatnya berdarah. ''Tak per, Umar. Lupakan? Nta juga yang tolong ana tadi. Terima- kasih! Moga Allah yang dapat membalasnya. Tapi, ana harap nta akan mengambil pengajaran. Belasah orang bukan cara untuk menyelesaikan masalah. Silap haribulan, boleh kena buang universiti. Kita kena berfikir panjang sebelum bertindak. Hari ni, ana, kawan nta sendiri yang nta belasah. Esok lusa, kalau nta belasah orang lain pun, dia juga adalah kawan kepada seseorang, anak lelaki kepada seseorang dan abang kepada seseorang. Fikirkan berapa manusia yang membenci dan tak meredhai nta kalau nta membelasah seseorang!!'' Kata-kata Banna membuatkan Umar terfikir. ''Banna, ana minta maaf!'' Umar memeluk Banna. Handsetnya berirama sekaligus meleraikan pelukannya. Adamesej yang diterima. Bang Umar sayang, esok kita jumpa kat PWTC, jangan lupa pulak! Fika dah tak tahan ni. Rasa rindu sangat kat abang. Hidup Fika betul-betul jadi gila tak menentu, asyik ingatkan abang je! Esok ye sayang?.luv U!! Umar serba- salah selepas membaca mesej itu. Wajah Hanif, Syamil, Hizbi, Faizi dan Dr. Azmin seakan-akan terpancar dari anak mata Banna, mereka seolah-olah sedang melambai-lambai mengajaknya ke smart group pada petang esok. Umar membaca mesej Fika sekali lagi. Dia tewas dengan kuasa cinta Nur Syafika. ''Banna, esok jangan lupa kirimkan salam ana kat semua. Ana betul-betul tak boleh pergi smart group,'' ''Baiklah, ana tak berhak paksa nta. Ana cuma mampu mengajak. Ana doakan, Allah permudahkan urusan nta untuk siapkan assignment nta,. Kalau sempat siap, nta datanglah. Kejap pun tak per,' balas Banna. Mengharap.

..part 3

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PART III Fathil menghidupkan enjin motorsikal krissnya. Umar membonceng di belakang. Kepalanya asyik memikirkan pertemuan yang bakal diatur antara Umar dan Fika. " Eh..eh.. Maziah lah!"Fathil tak menyangka terserempak dengan Maziah. " Yang mana?" " Tu, tu, baju putih." Umar berpaling ke belakang. Matanya liar meneliti gadis berbaju putih yang sedang menunggu di perhentian bas bersama beberapa orang kawannya. Kelajuan motorsikal yang dipandu oleh Fathil menyebabkan pandangannya mampu menatap wajah Maziah sekilas cuma. " Nampak tak?" suara Fathil agak meninggi melawan frekuensi angin. " Sikit-sikit je..kau bawa motor laju sangat," balas Umar. " Okey, aku pusing lagi sekali. Cambetul-betul tau." Fathil bertindak seperti apa yang dikata. Sebaik sahaja melepasi perhentian bas itu, dia memperlahankan motorsikalnya sambil berteriak gatal, " Maaaziaaahhhh...." Gadis itu memandang tepat. Kawan-kawannya juga turut memandang. Panahan matanya tembus ke hati Fathil hinggakan motorsikal yang dipandunya hampir hilang kawalan. Nasib baik sempat cover. (Boleh tahan! Tapi, macam pernah nampak, di mana ya?) bisik Umar. Umar cubamengecam wajah Maziah sekali lagi. Matanya beralih fokus kepada seseorang. (Eh, Asiah Yusro?!)Dia terperanjat melihat gadis yang berada di tepi Maziah ialah Asiah Yusro, gadis pujaan hatinya. (Alamak, mesti Asiah Yusro terkejut tengok aku naik motor dengan budak gila-gila macam Fathil ni. Mesti dia sangka aku tak thiqoh lagi. Ahh,..biarkan. Boleh blah lah Asiah Yusro dengan thiqoh kau tu..kaulah wanita paling kejam. Bertahun-tahun kau buat jiwa aku terseksa!) Fathil mencari tempat parking berhampiran dewan besar universiti. Kakinya pantas menyusun rentak ke dewan, diiringi oleh Umar. " Lawa si Maziah, kan?!" " Kau memang..cari orang lawa je!" " Kau tahu ape! Maziah tu bukan saje lawa tapi baik, tau!" " Buktinya?" " Ntah?! Aku tengok dia pandai bawa diri. Nampak terjaga.." " Perasaan kau je tu!Aku rasa perempuan macam tu berpotensi besar buat jiwa kau terseksa," Umar belajar daripada pengalaman. " Orang tak de mak we cam tu lah! Mana kau tahu tengok perempuan," " Kau jangan cabar aku, Fathil. Tengoklah nanti, dalam masa sesaat pun aku boleh cari mak we," Pap! Satu tumbukan lembut singgah di bahu Fathil. Seorang gadis berwajah jelita, beraksi menggoda sedang menarik muka masam. " Fathil nak nyorok dari Fika, ye?!" marah gadis itu. Comel. (Fika?! Gurlp!!) " Umar, kau bertuah malam niâ?¦memang sesaat pun!" Fathil separuh berbisik. Umar kehairanan dan cubamentafsirkan kata-kata itu. " Err, tak de lah Fika. Fathil sebenarnya puas cari pengganti untuk Fika. Bukan Fathil tak suka Fika, tapi Fathil rasa ada orang yang lebih baik untuk Fika berbanding Fathil. Itu tanda sayang ikhlas Fathil pada Fika. Kenalkan ni Umar Al-Mujahid. Dia boleh jadi pak we baru Fika," pandai Fathil menyusun ayat. Dia memang mahir bertanam tebu di pinggir bibir. Hatinya melonjak-lonjak riang kerana boleh bebas daripada perempuan yang dianggap merimaskan ini. Lagipun dia tahu, memang itu yang Fika inginkan. Fika tentu gembira melihat lelaki misteri yang membonceng motornya tempoh hari, kini ada di depan matanya. Umar dan Fika saling berpandangan. Umar lemas dengan renungan tajam gadis itu. Dia makin tenggelam dengan senyuman manis yang mula berkuntum dari bibir mungil bak limau seulas, merah bak delima merekah. (Cunnya Fika!) terbeliak mata Umar. (Wow, 10 kali ganda lagi hensem dari Fathil! Macam Hritik Roshan..) Fika pun turut terpegun dengan ketampanan Umar. Hidup Umar makin terawang-awangan dibuai bayangan Fika. Si gadis jelita. Teknologi sms 'dimanfaatkan' sepenuhnya sebagai penghubung saban hari. Kadang-kadang, sampai tak tidur malam mereka berbalas sms. (Jiwa aku selalu resah. Ibarat makan tak kenyang, mandi tak basah. Inikah makna cinta? Ya, aku rasa, aku dah jatuh cinta!) Kini, barulah Umar dapat merasai keseronokan memiliki seorang teman wanita sebagaimana yang sering diceritakan oleh Fathil. Memang seronok! Umar tak mampu lagi menongkah arus di lautan cinta remaja yang menipu daya. Dia membiarkan dirinya terus dan terus hanyut dipukul badai cinta yang kian bergelora. Cinta yang terumbang-ambing di samudera luas dan tak tertinjau tepiannya. Kini, malamnya ditemani mimpi-mimpi indah,siangnya teruja dek warna-warni cinta. Cinta itu indah. (Fika, kau istimewa! Bagiku, kaulah penyingkap makna cinta di hati ini... Fika, bayanganmu sentiasa menemaniku. Fika, hatiku milikmu! Oh, Fika..) Tok!Tok! Assalamualaikum... Kebetulan, Fathil hendak membuka pintu untuk keluar tatkala pintu biliknya diketuk. " Umar ada?" seraut wajah bersih seorang lelaki tercegat di depan biliknya. Bibir lelaki itu menguntum senyuman. Tangannya dihulur untuk berjabat tangan dengan Fathil. Fathil menyambut salam dengan kekok. " Saya Banna..Hassan Al-Banna," lelaki itu memperkenalkan diri. " Kenal...selalu dah nampak muka kau tapi tak tahu nama. Kau duduk kolej sebelah, kan?!" " Mmm...awak?" " Aku Fathil." Sejurus selepas itu Fathil melaung memanggil Umar. " Umar, kawan kau datang!" Tiada laung balas. Senyap. Handset Fathil pula berirama minta diangkat. " Hello, Joe! Dia masih ada kat stall tu? Aku nak pergi lah ni,". Fathil tergesa-gesa mengikat tali kasut. " Umar tertidur, kot. Pergi lah jenguk dalam compartment dia tu!" Ujar Fathil kepada Banna. Banna mengangguk. Fathil meluru keluar sebaik sahaja tali kasutnya kemas diikat. Banna masuk ke compartment Umar. Dia sedang nyenyak tidur. Tidur petang. Di dalam genggamannya yang terbuka, Banna menjeling kepada satu mesej yang tertera di skrin handset. Bang Umar, takkan asyik sms je. Petang esok kita jumpa kat PWTC nak? Bolehlah bang...plizzzzzz...luv u!!! Fika saaaaaayang abang. Ummmwahhh! Banna terkejut membaca mesej itu. Dikelip-kelipkan matanya bagaikan tidak percaya. (Umar sedang bercinta?) hatinya sukar menerima. Selang seketika, pintu bilik itu dikuak orang. Fathil masuk tergesa-gesa tanpa membuka kasut. Dia mengambil sekeping kad bersampul biru muda. (Tertinggal agaknya?)Banna memandang Fathil dengan senyuman. ''Dia tak bangun lagi ke?'' Fathil sempat menjenguk Banna di dalam compartment Umar. ''Emm..tak lagi!'' balas Banna masih tersenyum. Fathil mendengus lalu menggoyang-goyangkan bahu Umar. ''Woii, bangunlah?.kawan kau datang ni!'' tengking Fathil. Umar menggosok-gosokkan mata. Dia menatap paparan mesej di skrin handset seketika, kemudian pantas menutupnya. ''Macam tu lah dia. Hari-hari main sms sampai tertidur. Aku nak ajak keluar pun susah sekarang ni,'' leter Fathil . Hati Banna makin curiga dengan Umar. ''Err, nak ke mana tu?'' Banna sempat bertanya. ''Nak ke stall. Sekarang ni kanMujahidah Week, bolehlah membeli sambil ngorat mujahidah?'' Fathil ketawa berdekah-dekah dengan lawaknya. Banna turut tersenyum. ''Chow dulu?'' Fathil melemparkan senyuman ramah. (Bagus dia, mudah masuk ngan orang?) hati Banna memuji Fathil. Banna menerangkan kepada Umar bahawa dia datang untuk mengajak Umar menghadiri perjumpaan mingguan smart group bagi pelajar-pelajar lepasan Sekolah Taman Islam, sebuah sekolah swasta yang tidak asing lagi di negeri Utara. Namun, tak semua orang yang menyertainya berasal daripada sekolah itu, majoriti mereka daripada situ. Smart group ditubuhkan bertujuan untuk mengumpulkan mereka, berbincang soal akademik, akhlak, isu semasa, tarbiyyah dan da'wah. Smart group juga dapat mengikat hati-hati mereka agar tetap bersama sahabat-sahabat yang soleh dan suasana yang mendidik. Kewujudan smart group adalah cetusan dari kesedaran bahawa fatamorgana dunia hari ini terlalu menipu daya. Maka, setiap jiwa yang hajat kepada Islam perlu dikumpulkan bersama biarpun dalam smart group kecil agar mereka boleh lengkap- melengkapi dan kuat- menguatkan menghadapi cabaran jahiliyyah. (Ahh, boleh blahlah smart group! Pergi jahanam dengan Asiah Yusro? Aku dah besar, aku tak perlukan smart group. Aku bukan pelajar Sekolah Taman Islam lagi. Aku mahasiswa universiti. Smart group, namanya pun sudah jelek aku mendengarnya!) ''Banna, ana ada hal lah esok,'' Umar masih mengekalkan ganti nama ana yang cukup sebati dituturkan di Sekolah Taman Islam. ''Hal apa yang lebih penting dari smart group?'' ''Err?nak buat assignment, banyak lagi tak siap. Hari Isnin ni dah kena hantar,'' Umar beralasan. Dia sudah pandai berbohong. ''Kalau macam tu, kita buat smart group di bilik nta. Sambil-sambil tu, kami semua boleh tolong nta siapkan assignment..'' Banna menawarkan pertolongan. ''Eh, tak yah lah?ana boleh buat sendiri,''Umar menolak. ''Datang smart group kejap je, Umar. Tak sampai pun sejam. Insyallah, kalau nta datang, Allah akan permudahkan urusan nta untuk buat asignment . Kalau kita tolong agama Allah, Allah akan tolong kita. Smart group bukan benda main-main, ianya tanda sensitiviti kita pada agama. Sahabat-sahabat kita semuanya dah cukup rindu kat nta,. Masuk ni, dah tiga kali nta tak datang. Bayangkan tiga minggu nta menghilang, macam mana sahabat-sahabat kita tak risau?!'' (Mereka semua ni sama cam dulu. Ambil berat sungguh! Tapi, aku dah bosan dengan smart group?) ''Malam kami ziarah bilik nta ramai-ramai tu, nta ke mana? Bukan ke kita dah janji?!'' Banna melontarkan persoalan. ''Ana minta maaf. Ana terlupa. Malam tu, Fathil ada urusan. Ana temankan dia. Tak sempat nak hantar mesej kat nta,'' ''Umar, ana bukan nak marah, ana masih sangka baik kat nta. Nta tetap sahabat kami sampai bila-bila. Datanglah esok?'' ''Esok memang ana tak bolehlah. Kirim salam je lah kat semua. Kalau ditanya, katakan ana banyak assignment,'' ''Insyallah. Oh ya! Dr. Azmin kirim salam . Dia kata puas dia contact nta tapi tak dapat-dapat,''. Wajah kebapaan bekas guru di Sekolah Taman Islam yang kini sudah bergelar pensyarah itu, bertandang di fikiran Umar. Baru semalam dia bertembung dengan Dr. Azmin namun dia cepat-cepat mengelak. (Aku tak nak jumpa Dr. Azmin lagi. Aku dah bosan dengan bicaranya tentang tarbiyyah dan da'wah. Tarbiyyah, da'wah? Pergi jahanamlah?aku dah meluat. Pergi jahanam bersama Asiah Yusro) ''Ana dah tukar sim card?''jawab Umar bersahaja. ''Kenapa tak inform?'' ''Ana nak rahsiakan nombor ana,'' Umar tak berselindung. ''Kenapa ni Umar?''hairan Banna dibuatnya. ''Ntah?!Bosan?''getus Umar. Wajahnya berkeriut kebencian. ''Bosan? Bosan dengan apa?'' ''Bosan dengan semua yang ada di Taman Islam. Ana rasa terkongkong. Betul-betul bosan! Rasa muak bila diajak ke program-program tarbiyyah terutamanya smart group. Tolonglah?ana tak nak dengar perkataan tu lagi, bosan! Ana tak nak semua ni. Ana nak rasa enjoy macam orang lain. Ana tak tahan dan memberontak bila kat sini pun korang semua masih nak kongkong ana macam kat Taman Islam dulu. Ziarah, usrah, ukhuwwah, da'wah, tarbiyyah?ahh, meluat!''terpancul kata-kata yang sarat luahan. (Kenapa aku luahkan semua ni? Ahh?biarkan?biarkan?dah lama benar ia terpendam) Umar puas dengan luahannya. Peluh dingin memercik di dahi. Banna terpaku. (Benarkah apa yang aku dengar ini? Alam nyata ke ni?) ''Umar, nta bosan dengan hidayah Allah?'' Banna mengungkap. (Gurlp! Bisa sungguh pertanyaan ni!) ''Umar, kat Taman Islam dulu, nta Ketua Pengawas yang sangat ana kagumi. Ana masih ingat lagi kata-kata nta dulu?.. diri kita ibarat cawan. Kalau kita tak tuang di dalam cawan dengan air, molekul-molekul angin akan masuk. Begitulah juga diri kita, kalau kita tak tuang dengan ilmu dan iman, anasir-anasir lain akan masuk. Kita hajat kepada tarbiyyah untuk mengisi diri kita dengan bekalan iman agar hidayah Allah kekal dan tak hilang dalam hati. Kita terlalu hajat pada hidayah Allah,'' Banna menyambung lagi, ''Umar, ke mana pun kita lari dan pergi, kita akan kembali kepada Allah. Kita tak boleh sombong dengan Allah. Allah boleh menapis diri kita daripada mendapat hidayah-Nya bila-bila masa saja, sebab tu lah kita perlu bersyukur dengan hidayah Allah dan perlu berusaha mengekalkannya. Allah dah tunjukkan jalan yang terbaik untuk kita, kenapa kita nak sia-siakannya?'' ''Ahh, jangan ulang ucapan tu lagi. Ana bosan mendengarnya,'' jiwa Umar gersang. Sudah lama tak disirami hujan iman. (Itu dulu. Apa yang aku dapat dari semua tu? Kerana semua tu lah, aku mengenali Asiah Yusro, lantas sejak itulah perasaanku terseksa. Aku juga tahu, kerana semua tu lah Asiah Yusro tak membalas cintaku. Semua tulah yang merampas Asiah Yusro dariku. Aku benci!!!) ''Umar, jangan cubalari dari hidayah Allah. Fikirkanlah, sampai bila nta nak berkrisis dengan Allah macam ni? Hidup ini takkan selamanya begini. Kita akan mati berjumpa Allah. Nta nak termasuk di kalangan orang-orang yang rugi?'' Banna tidak jemu melembutkan hati Umar. Banna terdiam. (Ahhhhhhhhh?.bosannya!!! Tapi, betul juga cakap Banna) ''Ana tak sekuat nta, Banna. Ana futur, tak larat nak bangun balik. Nantilah,esok kalau ada masa ana datang smart group,'' jiwa Umar terusik. Banna tersenyum. Air liurnya tak terbuang sia-sia. ''Ana akan tunggu nta.Bukan ana je, tapi kami semua akan tunggu nta. Ingat, sahabat-sahabat kita rindukan nta, terutamanya mas'ul kita, Dr Azmin,'' Irama handset Umar berbunyi. Umar nampak gugup. ''Hello, err, nanti abang telefon kemudian. Abang ada tetamu ni?'' Umar menjawab panggilan dengan ringkas. Banna faham lalu meminta diri. ''Tak per lah Umar, ana pergi dulu. Nak jumpa adik kembar ana kat stall jap, Assalamualaikum. Jumpa lagi,'' Banna bangun beredar. Umar membalas salam. Selang seketika,handsetnya berbunyi lagi. Umar menjawab panggilan itu dengan suara lembut. Banna menjeling. (Adik dia kot?)hati Banna cubaberbaik sangka. Namun, otaknya ligat berfikir sesuatu. Basah di ingatannya mesej yang sempat dicuri-curi baca sebentar tadi, lalu dia membuat satu sms. Assalamualaikum. Smart Group bertukar venue di PWTC, kul 5.30 ptg esok.

..part 2

2009-02-17T08:32:00.000+08:00

PART II Sejurus selepas itu, irama handset berbunyi. "Hello! Fathil"suara lunak seorang gadis menerjah masuk ke gegendang telinga Umar. "Err, hello. Fathil tak der," Umar gugup berhadapan suara itu. "Ah, alasan je tu! Fika tak percaya. Fika nak cakap dengan Fathil, cepatlah.. "suara itu mendesak. "Betul..dia keluar. Sumpah!" Umar meyakinkan. "Dah dekat 1000 kali Fika call, kenapa dia tak angkat?" "Sebenarnya, Fathil dah pakai nombor baru. Ni dah jadi nombor saya," "Fika dah agaK!dia memang nak larikan diri dari Fika. Tak tahu apa salah Fika.. semua jantan memang macam tu, suka permainkan perempuan," suara itu bertukar sebak. Tersentuh hati Umar. "Tapi, tak semua.." Umar membela kaumnya. " Fika tak pernah jumpa pun...semua lelaki yang Fika kenali tak boleh harap," " Err, suatu hari nanti jumpa lah.." " Huh, entah bila.." " Berdoalah pada Allah," " Berdoa?"gadis itu ketawa terbahak-bahak mendengar saranan Umar. (Aku buat lawak ke?) bisik Umar, keliru. " Okeylah. Nanti saya duduk kat sejadah dan berdoa 24 jam. Untung-untung, putera kayangan pun rasa nak turun melamar saya. Okey, bye!"gadis itu melawak sambil ketawa lagi. Hati Umar bergetar. Inilah kali pertama dia bercakap dengan perempuan melalui telefon. Itupun secara tidak sengaja. Suasana di Sekolah Taman Islamnya dulu tidak pernah memberi peluang dan ruang untuknya mengenali seorang perempuan dengan lebih dekat. Jauh sekali untuk berhubung begini. Kali pertama dia cubamendekati perempuan sewaktu awal masuk ke universiti. Itupun tak dilayan. Masakan tidak, perempuan itu ialah Asiah Yusro, perempuan yang terkenal dengan waro' di sekolahnya dulu. Suara merdu gadis yang baru dikenali sebagai Fika itu terus terngiang-ngiang di pendengaran. (Merdu sungguh suaranya., tentu wajahnya pun menawan. Lagipun, Fathil syok kat perempuan-perempuan cantik je. Tapi, kenapa boleh clash pulak?) (Astargfirullah! Fitnah besar pada hati aku ni...) Umar menepis bisikan-bisikan liar yang singgah di hatinya. Tiba-tiba irama handsetnya berbunyi lagi. "Hello, Fika ni!" Gurlp!Umar menelan liur. " Hello!"balas Umar. " Mmm. Fika lupa nak kenalkan diri tadi. Saudara jugak tak kenalkan diri pun," Umar terlopong. Suara merdu itu benar-benar menggetarkan hatinya. " Nama penuh Fika, Nur Syafika bt Amir. Pelajar Kejururawatan. Saudara?" " Err..Umar Al-Mujahid bin Muhammad Suyuti," " Wow, machonya nama. Orangnya pun mesti macho.." " Ish, tak der lah. Biasa je..." " Mmm, merendah diri pulak. Awak mesti best. Kalau Fika panggil abang Umar, boleh?" " Abang?!" Gurlp!!! " Aa..ah..tanda respect Fika, bukanya ada apa-apa. Boleh kanabang Umar?!" " Err.. " kelu lidah Umar. " Okeylah bang Umar. Fika chow dulu. Nanti Fika call lagi. Kalau rindu Fika, sms lah..miss you my hero! Ummmwah.." Gurlp! Sudah ke berapa kali Umar menelan liur. Fikirannya jauh menerawang. Dia cubamembayangkan wajah Fika. Hatinya dibuai bisikan-bisikan asyik tentang seungkap nama Nur Syafika. Suara halus selunak buluh perindu itu terus bermain-main di ingatan. Umar cubamenepis tapi kali ini dia tak berdaya lagi. Suara itu terlalu merdu dan menggoda. Umar mengukir senyum sendiri. " Umar, kau nak tengok persembahan teater, tak?" Fathil mengajak. Kepalanya ligat mengatur strategi untuk mempengaruhi Umar. Dia mesti bijak menjerat Umar agar dia boleh bebas daripada buruan Fika. Baru petang tadi dia diburu lagi oleh Fika dengan pelbagai pujuk rayu. Akhirnya dia menjanjikan sesuatu untuk Fika kerana dia tahu dia tak boleh bebas daripada gadis yang licik itu selagi Umar tak dijadikan penggantinya. " Tak minat!"balas Umar. Ringkas. " Cis, budak skema! Tak sporting lah kau ni. Jom lah Umar, aku bukannya ajak kau club in, tengok teater dalam universiti je. Lagipun, bukan ada apa-apa malam ni..bosanlah!" " Aku tak nak!!" tegas Umar. " Okey, kalau kau tak nak ikut, aku nak ubah plan pergi disco. Kau sanggup tengok kawan kau nak pergi tempat maksiat, Umar?" Fathil tahu kelemahan Umar, seterusnya cubamenjerat. " Tapi..Hizbi, Banna, Hanif, Faizi dan Syamil nak datang malam ni." " Oh, kawan-kawan kau yang selalu datang tu. Baik aku chow cepat-cepat. Aku segan lah ngan diorang tu. Geng-geng malaikat tu, aku pulak geng setan. Ntah macam mana aku sebilik ngan kau sebab kau pun geng diorang jugak, kan?!" " Diorang tu satu sekolah ngan aku dulu. Tapi Hanif ngan Faizi bukan! Mereka kawan baik aku," " Patutlah kau pun ala-ala malaikat skit. Tak sebulu ngan aku.." " Hey Fathil, jangan kata cam tu! Aku pun gila-gila macam kau jugak tau. Ingat aku suka sangat diorang datang? Aku pun dah bosan dengan diorang. Asyik nak ajak aku pergi program agama je, ingat ni zaman sekolah dulu lagi agaknya," " Kau biar betul, Umar. Cakap bolehlah.." Fathil ragu-ragu. " Okey, aku ikut kau pergi tengok teater!" " Hah, macam tu lah kawan aku! Jangan pandai cakap je tapi kena tunjukkan. Macam ni lah yang aku nak."